Monster » (Stiles Stilinski)[Book 3]

Woke Up with a Monster

It was weird. 

It was weird you know, the feeling of finally being done with my whole revenge plot. It was weird, I felt empty inside but not in a bad way. Kind of..in a lost kind of way. I don't know who I am without the drive for revenge for my family, I don't know how to be a normal person anymore. You know, a person who doesn't crave for blood, who doesn't crave for someone's heart to rip out if it meant getting answers for her parents. 

I'm so terrified, I'm scared, I don't know who or what to be anymore. I'm not help to anyone, I'm not a real Alpha, I'm barley a werewolf, and I sure as hell am not anywhere near being a hero. I barley managed to regain control of my shift, sure there are some complicated moments but I always got through them, with Isaac's help but still. 

Scott needed a real Alpha to help him with his transformation to an Alpha. But.. he wasn't going to find that help in me. At least not now. I have never been an Alpha to a pack of my own, at least not a real pack.

I don't-I don't know how to help, who to be... I don't, I don't...

How do you be someone you don't know how to be, someone you never thought you could be...? 

With the help of the person who made you want to give it all up. 

Stiles. 

He was the person who made me want to give up my revenge path, I had told him once that we couldn't be in each other's lives because of it. But now, now we could. Even if it was just as friends but somehow.. I have a feeling Isaac would help me move on, i mean if there is ever such a thing as moving on from someone you love more than life itself... 

"Stop, your dad's in the next room.." I giggled as Stiles kissed my neck while I flipped us over, moving my hair out of my face to stare down at him. Stiles smiled up at me, grabbing my hips while I bent down to kiss him on the lips. 

The kiss was heated, both of our hands moving and grabbing onto whatever we could of the other. I sighed into the kiss, feeling like I was melting. I moaned when Stiles moved his lips from mine to my neck, flipping us over. I couldn't help but laugh at how it tickled as I wrapped my legs around his waist, bringing him closer.

He grabbed my legs, squeezing them while he pulled away from my neck and stared down at me. He had this look on his face and I couldn't help but break into a smile at what he said next. 

"I love you." 

"I love you too.." I smiled wide, nodding my head and pulling him down for a deep kiss. 

Once we pulled away, he winked at me while he started lifting his shirt up and I followed in suit. As soon as I got mine over my head, I tossed it in some dark corner of his room before going to help him take his off. I couldn't help but laugh when his head got caught in his shirt, biting my lip while I brought the shirt over his head and tossed it. 

I brought him back to my lips, kissing the crap out of his face before stopping when I realized something changed. I slowly pulled away from him and seeing this blank look on his face.