The End of Summer
Today was August 26th, which meant there were only five days left until the next school year was going to begin. Only five more days of being in paradise with my amazing boyfriend. I didn't want the summer to end yet, Draco and I had just started dating four days ago! Nine days is not nearly enough time alone with my boyfriend!
I didn't want to tell anybody about us yet, because, you know... 'Harry Potter is dating Draco Malfoy' would be the only thing anybody talked about for the next month, and I wasn't sure that I wanted people to know just yet, they would judge us, and probably make fun of us too. Now, getting made fun of is nothing I'm not used to, but I couldn't stand the thought of my baby getting teased, and especially not because of me. So we've decided to not go public just yet, and to only meet in private. We promised each other that we wouldn't cheat on each other with any girls during this time either, even if it's to cover up for being gay.
I want to tell Ron and Hermione so badly, but Draco said we shouldn't even tell them yet, and that we should just act somewhat nicer towards each other this year, and maybe even make friends with the others' friends too. I think that's a fair deal, but I'm so excited about having someone that I really just want to scream it to the world. Draco makes me so happy.
Harry and I decided that we're going to try and phase our friends into the whole "we're dating" thing, and not just hit them with it straight away. Honestly, I'm terrified to tell anybody that we're together. Like, they're going to judge us! What would my mother think? What will all of Slytherin house think? What will Crabbe and Goyle think? What would they do?
I don't want to ever come out to anybody, I'm so scared, and I know that makes me a wimp, but seriously, what can you expect? I mean, people have always teased me about being gay, even before I knew I was gay.
"Why do you take so long on your hair, gay boy? Don't you know that nobody likes you yet?"
"Here comes the gay shit, you can smell his perfume from a kilometre away."
"Does Draco Gay-Boy need his daddy to protect him? Is he too much of a girl to stand up for himself?"
I shook my head to rid myself of the thoughts. I usually didn't mind some light teasing, but being called gay had always hurt me more than anything else. Maybe it was because I was gay, and hearing it being thrown around as an insult bugged me, but after all of those years I spent denying it, I am really scared for people to find out that they were right.
I wasn't looking forward to this school year at all. I would have to hide my sexuality from everybody, I would have to sneak around to see my boyfriend, I would have to restrain myself from kissing him and hugging him and holding his hand, and he wouldn't be able to do any of that to me either, unless we were alone. And that's going to hurt worse than anything I have went through this summer. Because I love Harry, so much, and nobody will realize it, and maybe Harry will stop believing it too.
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This chapter is pretty short, but hey, it's a chapter.
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