I marched on the bus and headed straight for my bunk. I didnt want to talk to anyone. I didnt even want to see anyone. Justin wasnt too far behind me but he wasnt in a good mood either.
I laid there, fist clenched at my side and just staring at the ceiling of my bunk. Blinking away tears. How could she do that? How could she hurt me? Just when I thought i was breaking through her walls, she knocks me down. I was furious, not at her but at Danny. How could he just walk back into her life and get her to fall for him, just like that.? He wasnt good for her. He broke her heart. I was good for her. I would of given her the world. Nikki made me hurt like no other girl.
Tears were running down my cheeks. Faint voices came from the front room, i wan'ts deaf to know they were talking about me. Justin was explaining to the band what happened. I just choose not to listen. My heart ached enough.
Deciding I had to let her know I was hurt and angry. Since I wasnt going to be a dick and just ignore her without her knowing what she did. I still cared. I sent her a text. Reading it over a few times through a blurry vision i hit send.
Kellin : Its nice to know the girl i gave everything to is out on a date with the one man that took it all away.
Its not like i was expecting a reply anytime soon so i decided to my phone on vibrate.
"Hey man. You okay?" Gabe spoke softly. i could see the outline of him through my curtains. He stood before my bunk.
"Im great, Just fucking great" I said in a sarcastic tone. he let out a sigh.
"Kell, Listen. i know you dont want to hear all the bull shit sympathy crap, so the guys and i are going out. I think you should come too."
He was right on so many levels. i didnt want to hear how sorry they were. Yeah they were my best friends, brother. but no one could be sorry. no one could feel the pain, and it wasnt their fault so there was no reason to be sorry.
"Justin is coming too" He added, since i was talking forever to reply.
I sat up and opened my curtain. Gabe looked at me for a second trying to see if my getting up was a yes or i was just going to bitch at him.But a smile soon found his lips.. I faked one too.
we had hit up a restaurant before going to a bar. I couldn't stomach food so i pretty much sat there playing with my fries. Seeing as though Justin and I drank all afternoon i wouldnt normally want to go drinking again, but when you hurting it was the only solution to numb the pain. It was defiantly numbing it.
"Another shot?" i walked over to Justin who was pretty much in the same state as myself, in the girl department. Though he still had no evidence of Vicky was cheating as well.
"Do you .. Do you think she's cheating on me?" Justin slurred.
I felt bad for him. He was like my brother, he was the only one that felt the same as me right now.
i shrugged. i had no answers to give him. Justin nodded and we both pounded back our shot.
An hour later Justin and i left the bar, the guys had gone back awhile ago. Of course after much begging for us to come and the settlement of us calling one of them to come get us. We left, no call no nothing.
We leaned on each other and tried our best to walk in a straight line. but failed. It was funny, we probably looked like a couple of bums. I bet Nikk i would of been pissed if she saw me now, i hope she does see me. So she can see what she did. How much i hurt enough to drink it away. God! I love that girl.
I managed to pull out my phone. No msg back. Great I was being ignored now.
"Kellin look!" Justin pointed.
It was Mike and Vicky. What where they doing out late at night? With flashlights?
Without another moment to think Justin sped off into their direction.
"What the hell!" He yelled and he came crashing in the Mike, sending him backwards. Justin was on top of him waling punches. Vicky yelled to stop as I pulled him off.
"Justin chill" I yelled, I dont even know how i was able to hold him back.
Mike quickly pushed himself off the floor, whipping his nose to see if there was any blood. Lucky for him Justin was drunk. Really drunk.
"Justin! What was that?" Vicky yelled at him. He looked away.
"Why are you attacking Mike for? What is your problem? Oh my god your drunk! your both drunk! " Vicky was yelling, she was pissed.
why was she pissed?
"Maybe if you didnt lie to me I wouldnt be like this" Justin turned back to her. He pushed me away so he could stand up.
"ME? This is my fault"
"yeah it is, If you didn't lie to cover up Nikki's date and your alone time with your ex. I ... Kellin and I wouldnt be like this"
Justin was acting stupid, but I would probably said the same thing. Vicky looked guilty, her eyes quickly moved to Mikewho was standing there awkwardly but prepared if Justin were to swing again.
"Justin look. I think you should go and sleep.."
"No! Tell me, Tell me why you lied!"
Vicky sighed. She looked at me, I didnt like the look in her eyes.
"I lied, because Danny showed up in Vegas. Now before you get all pissed off hear me out. He showed up and asked Nikki to meet up. She didnt want to. She came crying to Mike and I but we told her to go and see what he wanted. So we covered for her. You weren't suppose to find her, Im sorry we never told you but It wasnt my decision and If i told you, Justin you would of told Kellin. Its not my spot to tell you anymore. Its hers" She said back to me.
there's always a but.
"We have no idea were she is"