Saving Him • editing/rewriting

twelve-everything i didn't say

There was a minute's silence before Lola spoke again, "He said you've also been blowing him off all last week." She bit her lip.

I groaned fustratedly, "I had to go for a check up at the hospital and finish off my assignments!" I exclaim trying to keep calm but failing. "I was going to talk to him after we came home from the party but..."

Tom nodded, "Okay, I knew you wouldn't do that to him. I'll talk to Hunter after this and get him to snap out of it." He said.

"No." Lola told him, shaking her head. "Katie should do it herself. She's the only one he will believe."

I agreed with Lola and decided to go over to his house. The sooner this was fixed the better. So Tom gave me his address and I realised that he only lived a bus ride away so I could get there quite easily.

Once I got off at the spot closest to his house, I started following th directions that Google maps gave me. I arrived at a large house. It looked a bit sinister though so I was intimidated. What if it wasn't Hunter's house? I told myself to shut up and made myself ring the doorbell.

Hunter opened the door and his eyes widened, "Katie, what the hell are you doing here?" He asked, his voice a little on edge.

"I want to explain everything that happened." I told him, fidgeting with my hands nervously and stepping from one foot the other. My heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to puke again. My hands were shaking and my legs almost gave out underneath me.

He let out a fustrated sigh, "Look I really don't care." He said quite harshly. I was surprised. I thought he would want to hear me out.

"Look," I mimicked what he said. "It wasn't what it looked like so if you would just let me explain-"

"Do you think I care what it looked like? You can go fuck Mike for all I care. You don't have to explain anything to me." He snaps. "You seem to have forgotten that you're not my girlfriend."

I bit my lip as my heart broke a little. I knew we weren't dating but he didn't need to say it like that. He said it with such disgust and hostility it actually made me doubt if the Hunter I had fallen for actually existed.

"Are you still mad at me because of what I did with Mike?" I decided to ask.

He snarled, "No Katie. Why would you think I would be mad? It's not as if I like you." He said with hostility dripping from his tone.

I squeezed my fists together and pushing past the unbearable pain his words brought me, "But you kissed me and I-I thought..."

"You thought what Katie? That just because we kissed I suddenly liked you? No, that kiss was a massive fucking mistake and that was all it was." He spat. "Why would I like you anyway? You're nothing special."

His words were shattering my heart into a million pieces. I wanted to cry, to collapse to the ground and sob. But I couldn't. I wouldn't let him see me hurt because of his words. Anger started boiling up inside of me as I reached forward and slapped him right across his cheek. He looked stricken for a moment as his hand flew up to his face but his face went straight back to looking like he didn't give a fuck.

"So you think you're anything special Hunter? You're not. You think you're so damaged because of whatever fucking reason that you won't tell us about and that gives you a right to hurt people and to lead me on!" I shout at him and I swear his neighbours could hear everything I was saying. But I didn't care. His words left me feeling hard to breath and unimaginable pain in my heart. "Well it doesn't okay? Because even though I may not be important to you and you may not give a flying fuck about my feelings, this Hunter, this right now hurts like hell!" I scream at him until I feel my throat stinging.