I stared at the positive pregnancy test. I felt like I made the biggest mistake of life. I didn't know what to do or who to turn to. All I had was my brother Chris and I didn't know how I was going to tell him his lil sister is pregnant. I lived with my brother since I was 15 and now I'm 17. He have been protective of me my whole life and he told me to stay away from boys right now since they would get me in trouble. I didn't listen and now I'm going to be somebody's baby mother.
Chris was at work and today was our last day of school. I had missed my period and been peeing a lot. My breast had been feeling heavy and sore. I have been feeling nauseous and sleepy all the time. So here I was taking this test hoping it was all a false alarm. Maybe I won't tell him. He don't have to know not right now anyways. I'll tell him when I'm ready. Plus I can hide it until I'm big at least until I'm about five months hopefully.
I called Danny who is my baby's father and my boyfriend. "Hello." He said from the other side of the phone. "Hey Danny." I said. "What's up Alexis." He said. "I'm pregnant." I said and he said nothing. Matter fact he hung up in my face. Wow, so he's mad but he shouldn't be. I don't want him to be. if anything I should be mad at him since he the one who didn't do his part. Yes we used a condom and yes I was on birth control but I had just change it a couple months okay so I'm assuming the condom broke and the birth control didn't work.
I hate my life. I hate Danny and right now I hate this baby. "Alex come here." Chris said from downstairs. Oh my god, Chris is home. What am I going to do? Okay don't freak out. alex stay calm. I walked down stairs running up to Chris giving him a hug. "Hey lil sis." He said hugging me back. "You never been this happy to see me. What's going on?" He asked. Act calm. Act calm. "Nothing brother. Just happy to see you." I said. "Look sis Megan got us some season passes to six flags." He said. "We get them when we get there. I'm off work so lets go this weekend." He said.
Megan is Chris' girlfriend from 9th grade. Now he's 21. So you know that's a long time. "She did?" I asked nervously. "Yeah what's wrong. I though you would love that since you will be out of school." he looked worried. "I am happy. That's not the problem."
"What's the problem then?"
"He can come to. Its fine." He said.
Ugh I said. This is so hard. I ran to my room closing my door and locking it. I didn't want to be bothered. I'm so scared that Chris will be so mad at me. I didn't want him mad at me nor did I want him to kill Danny for this. I know he didn't like Danny but he dealt with him just because of me.
"Alex." Chris called knocking on my door. "I didn't mean to make you mad. I'm sorry." He continued to knock. "I'm not mad. I'm just thinking about stuff." I lied. "Like what? Open up the door." He continued to knock. I got up, wiped my eyes and opened my door for my brother.
"Aww lil sister." He said giving me a hug. "I'm ok Chris really." His hug made me feel so much better but I still wasn't ready to tell him this secret I'm hiding. I just couldn't see his face or seeing him mad at me. I didn't want him to hate me or to even yell at me.
"Okay sis. Megan want to go out to dinner. You can invite Danny if you want." He said. "No, Can I invite Kelly instead. Kelly was my bestfriend since fourth grade. She had became my friend one day after I comforted her after her dad had died. She had came to school crying and very sad one day and me being nice as I was approached her and ever since then we're been friends. Now her mother was married to this doctor and he loves Kelly like his own child.
"Yeah, we'll leave at 8 tonight." He left my room. Speaking of Kelly, she texted me.