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I stared at my ceiling after rubbing the sleep from my eyes. The ceiling was dimly lit, because the sun was only just coming up over the horizon. I glanced at my alarm clock. It was about 5. The house was quiet this morning. My family didn't usually get up for a couple more hours on weekends. Today was Sunday. It really didn't feel like Friday and Saturday even happened...Saturday...

"Oh my god." I shot straight up in my bed as my cheeks began to burn like fire with embarrassment. "...Oh my god..." I said a second time and put my face in my hands.

I couldn't believe that actually happened...Kizumi and I...we didn't have sex, but it came pretty close to that. What was I thinking yesterday??? I flopped back onto my bed and pulled my pillow over my face. Everything was so normal at first, and then the entire thing just flipped in a split second.

The amount of shock I was feeling now made me nauseous. Kizumi was a guy and yet I...I still did those things with him. It was so odd to think that I did that. I never thought something like that would happen...

I couldn't stop myself though...it all felt so good, and I kept wanting more. It was like my body separated from my mind, and I could feel was Kizumi's touch all over me. I groaned as I curled into a ball and threw the covers over the top of me, including the pillow over my head.

What would my parents say if they found out I did that? Even worse...with a guy. Would they be accepting about that? I didn't even know if I accepted it myself...I thought it was weird, but at the same time I didn't really mind that he was guy...At least it had been Kizumi and not someone else.

What am I even thinking? I threw the covers off and sat up in my bed again, sighing. At least it was Kizumi? What was that supposed to mean? Did I fall for him because of yesterday? No...that couldn't be it. If I didn't like him at least a little bit, I wouldn't have ever let that happen.

Maybe it was a natural response...I mean, if something feels good, you want more, right...? No...I thought as I swung my leg over my bed and rubbed my face. I can't believe it...I fell for the most impossible person I'd ever met, and I barely even realized it.


(Kizumi's P.O.V.)

I stared down into my bowl of cereal, completely unmotivated to eat. I was too distracted by my own thought to much of anything this morning.

"...holy shit..." I muttered to myself out loud in the empty house. I wasn't even blushing anymore. I was truly, and utterly shocked about yesterday still. I honestly thought I was going to get slapped, or maybe even punched in the nose or something...

No...he actually let me do all of those things to him. I couldn't believe it...what shocked me even more was the fact that I did those things to him at all. It wasn't even the fact that he was guy...it was just that it was so out of character for me. It's just...when I kissed him, he gave me such an innocent look.

After that, I couldn't stop myself from wanting more. I wanted him to look at me like that again. He looked so pure and honest when he started to tear up while I ran my fingers along his body. It was honestly sort of...beautiful. It made me feel so much more attracted to him than I already was.

I stirred my soggy cereal lightly, then pushed the bowl away and sighed. What was going to happen now? Was what I did a mistake? What if he started avoiding me? What if he told his friends what happened? I felt my stomach surge and I put my head in my arms on the table.

That would be the most devastating thing that's ever happened to me. I started to feel anger boiling inside of me and I sat up and took a breath. No...no, Shirou isn't that kind of person. I reassured myself. I still had that nagging fear in the back of my mind though. Maybe I should ask him not to say anything...

That is, if he'll even let me talk to him tomorrow.

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