"Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here to the moment I'm gone. You hold me without touch, you keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much, then to drown in your love and not feel your rain." Sarah Bareilles blast through my speakers.
I don't know why I continue to torture myself.
Sad music makes me feel better.
At least that's what I'm telling myself.
"Seeeet me free, Leaaaave me be. I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am, and I stand soooooo tall."
It's been a whole month now.
A whole month without Ashley and I think I'm effectively driving myself insane.
I can't eat.
I can't sleep.
"Just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over meeee."
I just need to feel her here.
To touch her.
"You hold me without touch, you keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so muuuch, then to drown in your love and not feel your rain."
I swear this song is giving me everything right now.
"I love you." Ashley whispers in my ear.
I look at her, her words catching me off guard.
We're laying on the bed at her house watching TV.
My head resting comfortably in the crook of her neck.
"Really?" I ask.
I knew she meant it though.
She wouldn't have said it if she didn't.
"Yeah. Really." She said smiling down at me.
I laid my head back down without saying anything.
"You love me too right Spence?" She questioned, sitting up a little on the bed.
I loved her.
Of course I did.
How could I not.
I just wanted her to squirm a little.
I smiled before replying.
"Of course I love you baby." I said pushing her back down and laying my head down on her chest.
"Then why'd you-" I put my finger on her lips shushing her.
"I love the sound of your heartbeat." I say randomly.
"Spencer, you're being weird."
The truth was...
I didn't wanna fall for her.
I didn't wanna love her.
Cause at any moment I could lose her.
Her dad could get re-stationed and she'd have to go to.
I knew all this.
But yet, I couldn't help how she made me feel.
I couldn't help that every time I saw her I wanted to kiss her.
YOU ARE READING
Spencer and Ashley have been together for two years when Ashley's dad gets re-stationed all the way across the country. Spencer and Ashley will try everything to stay together but will the distance be too much?