Love Confusion

Chapter 6

So that's how I ended up here sitting in a hospital bed with all the past events swimming and replaying in my head. Every time I thought of Aspen a bitter pang hit me then anger then hopelessness. If only he knew how much he had destroyed me, both emotionally and physically. I keep going through waves of thought like:

· I owe my life to that year 10 boy who called 999 and tried to look after me whilst I was unconscious

· I wish that I had died when that car had hit me

· If I had never met Aspen none of this would have happened

· I could have died because of Aspen

· Aspen was a prick and I was better than that, also that I will become a stronger person because of this experience...over time.

My injuries were pretty bad too:

1. I had completely broken my left leg which had made a dent in the car's bonnet and I had to have an operation to place the bones in the right place.

2. I had fractured my left hip

3. Bruised my left elbow

4. I got mild whip lash

5. And hit my head so hard that I had been knocked unconscious.

It's a good thing that I was knocked unconscious in a way because I can't really remember much pain, except my leg being put back into position for the journey to hospital. I hope Aspen feels really bad now, so bad that he's struggling to understand himself. I wonder all this time what went through his head when I was hit? It clearly wasn't to come to my aid, he probably continued snogging his new girlfriend. He makes me sick, he really does. I've told my mum what happened and she has been by my hospital bed 24/7. She's extremely angry at what happened and has blamed me several times for not checking the road before I crossed, even though I was heartbroken.