Unexpected

Snow and Memories

It was winter, the temperatures were low and snow was cascading down on the dreary grey world, turning it into a sweet winter paradise. I had always liked the snow. No mater how difficult things got or how much I hated everything and everyone. Seeing the world blanketed in the sweet soft snow somehow manged to always give me a glimmer of hope, it made me think of her. Something I haven't been able to do in a year, without having a complete breakdown.

"Parker! Stop daydreaming and get your ass back to work!" my boss Jake  shouted form somewhere far closer than my mind imagined it. 

I guess I should stop daydreaming. Nothing good will come from it, well at least not while i'm at work. I also really can't afford to lose this job. I sighed, closed my eyes and took a deep breath to close out my mind from thoughts of her and things that can never come true. All that I can do right now is clean these tables off and just try to get through the rest of the night.

" Hey Parker I'm going to need you to close up the Cafe tonight I have some where to be." Jake exclaimed,  already untying his apron and making a bee line to the front door.

"Sure, I can.." 

~Ding 

"Or you can just leave before I even finish talking. Wouldn't be the first or last time you've done this to me Jake. So why wouldn't I be surprised." I mumble to the empty tables in the cafe.

"Only two more hours then I am free. I can do anything for two more hours." As soon as those words left my mouth a pang of sadness began to resonate throughout my body. Those words, they were her's, and I haven't heard them in so long. 

" I miss you mom" I barely manage a whisper. Those words, they were her life motto of sorts. Whenever times got difficult she would always find positives in it.  She would always say she could do anything for just a bit longer, but the time frame seemed to always change to whatever was needed. She said it so much that it started to become my life motto of sorts. That was until she passed away last year. After she passed I couldn't bring myself to even think those words, not to mention even say them. Yet here I am alone, like always bringing up things that I know will purposely hurt me. They bring me deeper and deeper into the dark hole that is my heart. It tortures me, and I can't seem to dig my way out. What does it even matter anyways. It's not like I have anyone to be okay for, well at least not now.   

I finish cleaning the Cafe and get all of the nightly paperwork taken care of. So I start gathering my stuff to leave. I turn out the lights and walk out the front door checking it twice to make sure it's locked.  I turn and take in a deep breath of cool winter air. 

"I did it.  Another day done." my lips curled into a small smile. I put my hand out in an effort to catch a few snowflakes in my glove less hand, only to watch them melt almost instantly. Somehow it still baffles me that each and every snowflake is completely unique, not one of them is alike but they are all so beautiful. 

I began to start walking home. Walking late at night can be so refreshing sometimes. It feels as if you're the only one alive, just you and the world. Well that's until a car passes and brings you back to reality. 

I finally arrive to my apartment and unlock my door, and step inside. My apartment is small but it's enough. I throw my bag and keys on the counter and plop myself on the couch. I sigh longing for life to not be so hard. It hadn't always been this way. I used to live in a decent sized home, and I had my mom, she was amazing. She was my best friend, it had always been me and my mom. It was perfect.  I had dreams, and hope for the future, but after mom died I lost the house, and any hope of a future I had. I had been accepted to my dream College, University of Washington. I was going to major in English literature and minor in photography, but when mom died so did those dreams. I spent my college fund on her medical bills, her funeral and to just keep myself alive. It's sad to think that just when you thought you had everything you ever wanted it just gets ripped away in one day. 

I sigh letting the couch engulf me. I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. I try to suppress the felling of being completely alone. This is my life now there was no going back and changing it. As much as I wish I could I couldn't. 

Just as I was beginning to relax my phone started to ring. It was Officer Martin, I quickly hit the accept button.

"Hello." I say quietly.

"Parker! Hello how are you?" Officer Martin's voice flooded the phone.

"I'm okay I guess. What is it?" I state kinda annoyingly.

"Well I have some bad news for you." he says a little less lively.

"What is it?" I ask questionably while rubbing my head. I was just so tired of bad news.

"It's about your mom, or your mom's case. We have decided to stop investigating. There have been no leads, and we have no evidence. There is just nothing more we can do. I'm so sorry Parker." 

Authors Note:

Thank you so much for reading!!! 

I've decided to start a new story. I know that this chapter is a little boring, but if you stick with me on this ride I hope/promise you wont be disappointed!! I'm going to try and post a new chapter every two days for ya'll. Okay that's it from me for now. Again thank you so much for reading!!