Confession #76: I worry too much
I do. It kinda sucks. Like today I was talking to my friend and joking how badass I am and a rebel and I said something that sounded really bad... something like I sometimes go against my parents and all that shit. And things just got awkward
And so I am beating myself up. What if he judged me? What if he hated me? What if he thinks i'm a terrible person? He probably does. I should probably move on, I mean no one will really remember this ten years from now.. even a few days from now. I just hate how I beat myself up. All I am thinking about is how I fucked up
I don't want to be sad all the time. I'm tired of it. I screw up. I DESPISE myself when I overthink. My heart is sunk. I'm worrying. I'm worrying about whether or not he is judging me. I'm scared.
Well there goes my sleep.
Why do the little things fucking get to me?
I'm so tired.
Tired of fighting this anxiety that no one acknowledges.
I need help... but who who will help me
Hopefully I can just move on from it
KNowing me, I won't.
GOD I HATE MYSELF.
Can't get over something that isn't even important, I mean ppl slip things out. We all make mistakes
WHY DO I THINK I HAVE TO BE PERFECT
I hate me
I hate ppl
I don't know why he still talks to me
I don't know why all yall are reading this piece of shit written by a no good writer
If i could die rn, i'd die happy
I hate going through this.
I am so tired of failing.
So so so so tired
Anyways I should probably go to bed or clean my room and just not think about this. I will try my best not to think about it
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe I'm just Taz. A girl who is...