I wouldn't believe that he was gone. No matter how hard I tried I
couldn't hold back the tears. I cried all night. Just the thought that
he could of been lying next to me for the first time in ages hurt me.
I know that I had seen him a month ago when he was allowed a week on
leave, but it didn't make things any better, he still should
of been here.
The next day I didn't feel any better. I wouldn't answer my phone, I
wouldn't get dressed or anything. The only time I did something was
when I needed the bathroom. I felt awful. Not just because I was
grieving, but I felt sick and light headed - must of been lack of
sleep last night.
So many memories were flooding my mind but I didn't cry. I couldn't.
It was like I had cried every last tear I has inside of me.
There was a knock at the door. The last thing I needed was visitors.
Reluctantly I answered it, and my sister Cleo was there. She looked at
me, and gave me a huge hug.
We sat and talked for ages. She told me about the funeral arangements
and just the thought made me feel ill.
2weeks later.
The funeral was this afternoon I had planned a speech, just something
to say as a goodbye. To be honest I didn't think I was going to make
it! I had been feeling ill for over a week and I was constantly
hungry. I figured it was just the stress of everything. Cleo and her
husband, Joe and their son Liam, came and picked me up and we drove in
silence to East Avenue Church.
It was depressing seeing everyone in black. I took a deep breathe and
walked towards the church doors. The service was in 5min, so I made a
quicky bathroom stop. The minuite i entered the cubical I was sick.
This didn't feel right. I cleaned myself up and slowly walked over to
the pews.
After Euan's mum, dad and brother said their speechs, it was my turn.
I shook as I walked to the front. I was never a good public speaker.
'Euan was amazing. He was loved by everyone, especially me.'
'He was always there if,' I felt dizzy, but I carried on, 'if someone
need him,' 'he.. he..' the room was spinning, I couldn't stop shaking.
My stomach and my body were hurting so badly I could hardly stand. I
fell to the ground.
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The Claude Files: Tragedy, Surprises & Hope.
RomanceJasmine Claude was looking forward to the homecoming of her boyfriend. Tragedy strikes. Leaving Jazz homeless, loveless and alone. With a surprise in store for her, her life is about to be turned upside down!