you can't love me

chapter 1

It was dark I heard banging on a door my mom crying saying please the baby is sleeping" she said
"I don't care" he said
I walked in my little figure opening the door my father saw me and said "what are you doing here" I didn't answer he slapped me
My mom was crying
" answer me "

I woke up sweaty it happens every night I have the worse dream ever it's time to go to a New school I got in the shower cleansing myself and trying not to look at my body from all the scars I hold.

I get dressed and walk out the door with my friends pulling up
"Need a ride loser"
I just laughed we where all New here along with our boys we arrived to school 15 minutes early with all eyes on us

We walk out and meet are boys at there cars they where smoking
" hey give me some" I said
I enjoyed my cigarette one thing that I will never run away from me and is replaceable
"So who heard about this amazing club in town" Jake said

" well we want to go you ladies down" Jake said
" yeah sure just don't be trying to get in our pants you pervs" I said

The bell rang and we walked into calculus all eyes on us and a pair that would not stop starring at me

I Sat down and so did the group
Then Jake started talking to me
" why can't I have one night with you it would be fun" he said
I heard a growl that was weird
" because your a little to small for me down there" I said
His friend laughed
And said " in your dreams"
" it was worth trying" he said

The day went by pretty fast we where already in lunch
We walked in all eyes on us and a pair of hazel eyes that always stares it was silent and we Sat down

All I hoped was nobody ruin my day then someone tapped on my shoulder here we go again
I turned around and saw a blonde with a couple of her friends

" hey you why where you checking my man out" she said
" and you are" I said
" I'm Brittany and you need to stay away from my man" she said
" look Barbie I bet you have more than one man here and for your information he was starring at me so if you want to tell anyone to stop looking at him maybe it should be him you dumb bimbo" I said

She rolled her eyes
"You better check who your talking to" she said
"Last time I checked it was a wannabe Barbie girl" I said

Then she swinging at me wrong move Barbie I grabbed her arm flipped her and pinned her on the ground "want to throw another punch which by the way you never had a shot now leave you thot" I said

She ran away crying

Then I got another tap on my shoulder " go away Barbie" I said " actually I'm not Barbie I'm xavier" he said
" well then leave me the hell alone xavier can't you see I'm trying to enjoy the rest of my lunch which I hoped for but Barbie came and now you so leave me the hell alone" I said

He looked sad
" I was wondering if you would want to watch a movie" he said
" in your dreams lover boy" I said then the lunch bell rang and I walked away from him

The whole day lasted good and I got dropped off at home and was told where leaving at 9:00 no later I had time to do my homework I did that and ate a Apple I was finishing unpacking when I saw my mother's chest where she keeped her most valuable things

I opened it and looked at her picture and kissed it I took out her locket that she gave me when I was little I still remember the day.

Flashback

I had woke up and saw my mom cooking she said "happy birthday my little butterfly" and she pulled out a locket shaped like a butterfly and put it around My neck " no matter what you'll always be my little butterfly promise me you won't stop flying your meant to do great things in your life" she said

End of flaskback

I was drying My tears with a tissue I wish you would have know what life had brought me mom nothing but miserably
I closed the chest and put it under my bed I called my friends and told them I couldn't go to the thing tonight
That I had to go vist family

I got on my bike and rode to the cemetery where my mother was buried I brought her daisy her favorites I mostly talked to her

" hey mom I miss you I wish you where here but I guess life had a funny way of showing how much they love me" I said

"I look at other mother and daughters and just wish you could still be here I'm tired of being strong it sucks because I want to break down so many times I guess that's what I get I got to go I have school tomorrow miss you"

I went home had some tea and went to bed hopeing my nightmares would go away
This time.