Alone without you

Chapter one:

This was originally a one shot. But I have received comments to update it. So, I am going to make this a short story instead. Cuz why not?
~Daisy

Bonnie smiled at Damon. They were going to watch some bad movies and eat popcorn, just for the night. They both knew that tomorrow was another day, and they had to tell everyone that Bonnie was back. Even though they dreaded giving up their little secret, it was the right thing to do.

"I seriously think we should watch Twilight. It'll be fun to throw popcorn at the screen and complain about how wrong they are" Bonnie suggested. She was snuggled up to Damon holding a bowl of popcorn, while they attempted to pick out some bad movies.

"No way" Damon said, but he knew that he'd end up saying yes eventually. Whatever Bonnie wanted, he was damn sure going to make sure she got. Besides, this is the first sober night he's had in a while and making Bonnie happy would mean that it was a sober night well spent.

"C'mon! Twilight is so awful, it fits the bill perfectly! Vampires don't sparkle, unless you count sparks from the fire" Bonnie snickered.

Damon chuckled too, and reluctantly agreed. "Whatever you want to watch, even if it's Twilight" he softly kissed the top of her head and held her closer. If Damon had learned anything from 1994, it's that time is limited. Even if you think you'll have eternity with someone, whether you like them or not, the time is still limited. He knew Bonnie was a human, and he knew they wouldn't have forever together. But he was sure as hell going to treasure the time they were together.

"It's moments like this that make me despise being a vampire" Damon sighs "I've been alive so long, and I've found someone I love, someone who loves me too. But you won't live forever, Bon. Yet, that makes me love you even more"

Bonnie could feel tears pricking at her eyes. She imagined him saying those exact words so many times. While she was alone, while she was near giving up. She stayed alive and kept on going, fuelled on hope that she'd get to hear Damon say those exact words.

"I thought I'd feel bad, I thought I'd feel like I was betraying Elena, but I love you too, Damon" Bonnie said with a smile "everything I've ever done was to help Elena, all the magic witchy-woo, all the spells and the strength it took to do them. I do everything Elena needs me to do, and more. I can't feel bad. This feels too right for me to feel bad"

Damon smiled at the use of his word, 'Witchy-woo'. Coming from Bonnie it sounded cute, and less sarcastic. "Elena made her bed when she asked Ric to compel me away. Now she's sleeping in it, and I couldn't be happier" Damon told Bonnie.

"It really makes me mad that she chose to forget you" Bonnie tells Damon with a sigh. "I love you, and I know if anything ever happened I wouldn't want to forget you, I wouldn't be able to bring myself to forget you"

"I stopped loving Elena somewhere along the way. Somewhere along the way I started loving you. And Bon, I love you so damn much there isn't enough room in my heart for any traces of Elena" Damon kisses Bonnie's temple, feeling like nothing would ever go wrong again. Feeling safe, and happy and loved.

"You love me enough to watch Twilight" Bonnie giggles "that, right there, tells me you love me more than anything"

~

The next day came by quicker than Bonnie and Damon wanted. Within a blink of an eye, they were facing how to tell their friends that they were back.

"This would be so much easier if we could just say 'hey, Bonnie's back and she's not dead. Don't freak out or anything" Damon said sarcastically. Bonnie put a comforting hand on his shoulder, smiling softly she tried to reassure him.

"Damon, there will be worse things. Telling our friends I'm not dead is a hell of a lot better than if I actually was dead!" Bonnie was trying so hard to calm Damon down, and usually it would've worked. Usually he would have melted under her touch and immediately calmed down. But today was different, today was the day. He wouldn't have Bonnie all to himself anymore.

He wrapped his arms around her small frame and leaned his chin on the top of her head. "I won't have you all to myself anymore, Bon" he sighed.

"You'll always have me. And I'll always love you" Bonnie murmured. She couldn't hear his heartbeat, considering he was technically dead she wasn't surprised, but she could still feel him. "No matter what happens, no matter what life throws at us we will always have each other"

"I'll always have you" Damon echoed. For a split second, just a second, he wished he was human. Bonnie could go to college, they could get married eventually and even have a few kids. Damon always secretly liked kids, but he'd never admit it. Stefan as a kid was adorable, and since then Damon has always remembered baby Stefan whenever he looked at a child. Stefan would've had kids, under different circumstances, Damon knows. And since he's utterly in love with Caroline, he'd probably have them with her. She was the motherly type.

Damon couldn't think of what would or could have been any longer. He wanted to think only of what lay ahead in the future, what would happen in the moments to come. He only wanted to think of Bonnie, of her smell and her warmth and her touch and her love. Everything about her was intoxicating and he loved every second of it.

Bonnie was worried too. She was excited, as anyone would be, to see her friends again. She was excited to live again, but then again, she never really stopped living. As long as she was with Damon, she felt alive. She always felt more alive with him, like she was getting more from life. Even though he is technically dead, he always found a way to bring life to wherever he went. People saw him as a monster, but Bonnie saw him as someone who never had love. And if you didn't have love, you didn't know how to love. But he knew now, and I guess she had Elena to thank for that.

"It'll all be okay" Bonnie assured him, feeling much more sure than she felt. "It'll work itself out and it'll all be okay"

"I hope so" Damon told her "I can't be without you again" he whispered "because I'm alone without you"