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Pen Your Pride

Chapter 44: Leaving

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I grab all my clothes and things from Zayn's room and pack them. I've decided to go back to my apartment. I think some space from Zayn is needed and I'm still angry at him. What he said really hurt and I can't stop thinking of it and now I've been have flashbacks to that awful night when Zayn left me at that house.

My mind is a total mess again and I need time to think. I know Zayn is going to be angry since we did kind of make up, but he is just going to have to deal with it. I understand that there is a risk since who ever is leaving me those note me got into my apartment, but I'm just going to make sure everything is locked. I can't just live in fear forever.

Once my all my stuff is packed except a few things I thought I'd leave just incase I end up spending a night here I go to the living room. When Zayn sees me he smiles but ends up frowning when he sees my bags. I smile back at him, hoping it will help the situation. I honestly don't want to hurt his feelings or more likely his ego.

"What are you doing?" he asks.

"I told you that I am going back to my apartment."

"Yes, but I thought we worked it all out," he walks up to me.

We did work it out and after we left Wesley's apartment we actually had a fun time. Zayn seemed off though, he kept looking at me this certain way. I can't describe the look and I don't know why he kept looking at me like that, but it gave me this strange feeling in the pit of my stomach each time he did it. I even pointed it out once yet he just denied it entirely. Right after my small confrontation he began to ignore looking at me all together.

The only time he looked at me that way again was when he told me I should sleep in the guest room again right before we went to bed. I just looked at him trying figure out his weird behavior and I still can't figure out what was up. So for the past two nights I have been sleeping in the guest bedroom and Zayn has been really distance. His entire demeanor is making me off and the strangest part is in the middle of the night when Zayn thinks I am sleeping he will come in, and I assume, check on me.

"We did," I nod. "But I think it is time for me to go back."

"What about all those notes?" he looks at me like I'm out of my mind.

"I can't just hide forever."

Zayn gives me an exasperated look. He seems like he wants to say something but instead he just sighs, "Fine."

"Great," I smile appreciatively at him. "Mind dropping me off?"

He sighs once again, "Fine."

"Thank you," I lean up and peck his cheek. He smiles a little at me before grabbing his keys.

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Zayn helped me bring my stuff to my apartment and gave me a lecture on keeping all the windows and the door locked at all times before leaving. I could tell he didn't like that I am now going to be back at my place, but he kept it all to himself. I'm really thankful that he bit his tongue because I don't think I could handle another fight with him.

Kayla is still staying with Liam, I'm a bit iffy on whether or not to tell her to come back or not. I trust Kayla a hundred percent and she is my best friend, it's just that note did get to me a little. I'm sure this hesitant feeling I have towards Kayla will pass, but until then I will have to deal with it.

I unpack my bag quickly before lying on the couch. I close my eyes, breathe in deeply, and before I know it, tears are streaming down my face. I don't acknowledge the tears and just let them flow as I continue to breathe in and out deeply and rapidly.

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