Let shadows die, So I can feel alive

Chapter Seven

Arriving home after the interview I walked into the house to be greeted by mum "how did it go?" she asked as I walked through to where she was sat in the living room "I think it went okay, they said that they would be in contact within the next few days" she smiled "you are sure to get the job Cass" I nodded "fingers crossed, anyway I'm going to call Andy" she nodded and went back to whatever she was doing and I made my way up to my bedroom. I lay down onto my bed and pulled my phone from my bag, I pulled up Andy's contact and dialled his number, waiting for him to pick up the phone. There was a lot of muffled voices before Andy's voice appeared on the other end of the phone "Cass, how was the interview?" he seemed to be in a rush "I think it went okay, they said that they would be in touch" he continued to shuffle around "I'm glad it went well, they will be sorry not to have you working for them" I smiled "I hope so, you sound like you're in a rush, are you busy?" I asked him not wanting to stop him from working "we arrived at the venue a little late because of traffic so we are rushing a little to get ready for the show" he sounded a little flustered "I will let you go then, I don't want to make you even more late than you already are" I heard him chuckle through the phone "I will speak soon Cass, let me know if you get the job" I told him that I would before we ended the call.

-skip forward two weeks-

Grabbing my bag I sighed as I left the restaurant and headed over to where my car was parked, I had been working at the restaurant for just over a week and had just finished a six-hour shift and I was ready to fall asleep. Sitting in the car I sighed once again, my anxiety had been plaguing me again and I hadn't heard from Andy since I last spoke to him over the phone around two weeks ago. I started up the car and began to drive home quickly hoping to at least be in the comfort of my bedroom when and if I had a panic attack.

When I arrived home the drive was empty, therefore meaning that my parents hadn't gotten home from work yet, I walked into the house and rushed to my room as I tried to calm down my breathing, I slid down the door and sat on the floor as I reached my phone in a daze and called the first contact in my address book, Andy.

"Hello....Cass?" my breathing hitched "Cass, are you okay, are you having an attack?" he sounded worried "ye, yes" my words came out a little strained "okay, just breath Cass, you're fine" he spoke gently to me through the phone as I tried to calm my breathing. I heard him shuffle around before there was the sound of a door shutting, he seemingly sat down and softly began to sing saviour through the phone. I smiled as my breathing began to settle. He stopped singing after a while and I sighed, "I missed your voice" I sniffled "I know Cass, I missed yours too, I'm sorry I haven't been in contact, tours been pretty hectic" he paused "have you been having many attacks?" I sighed "this is the first one since at the meet and greet" I heard him exhale "I will be back in the state in just under four days and I promise I will be seeing you, anyway, did you get the job, I didn't hear from you?" I smiled "yeah I did, I was going to tell you but I didn't want to disturb you, I just finished my last shift of the week" I smiled, it felt good to finally have a job where I could earn my own money "that's great Cass". We continued to talk and catch each other up on what had been going on in our lives until I heard the front door open "I'm going to have to go, someone just got home and I'm pretty tired" "okay Cass, I will see you soon, if you have another attack please don't hesitate to call me" I smiled "thanks Andy, you really helped me, I appreciate it" I smiled "anything for you Cass, bye now" I said my goodbyes before I ended the call and got up from where I was still sat against the door and I began to make my way out of my room to find out who had returned home.

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I walked out of my room the next morning and noticed mum getting ready to leave for work, "bye mum" I called just as she was about to close the door "bye sweetie, have fun" she shut the door and I made my way downstairs and into the kitchen where dad was busy making pancakes. "So, what do you want to do today?" he asked as he served up breakfast, today dad had a day off and so we were going to hang out and do something together. "We could check out the new music store that just opened?" he nodded as we began to eat breakfast. After I had finished I made my way back upstairs and into the bathroom so I could take a shower and get ready. Turning off the shower I stepped out and grabbed the towel from the rack in front of me, once I was dressed I turned to my makeup, I applied a small amount of eyeliner as well as lipstick before I grabbed my phone and purse and walked out of my room to meet dad downstairs.

We pulled up right by the store and climbed out of the car, the record store had a super huge range of cd's as well as instruments. "I think I'm going to learn a musical instrument, I feel it might help keep my anxiety away" I looked towards dad as we were walking through the store checking out all the different instruments "I think that sounds like a great idea Cassidy" I nodded and walked over to the guitar section. After looking for a while I finally decided on which guitar to buy, I figured that I would just bye a basic cheap acoustic one so that I wouldn't be spending a heck load of money on something that I might not get a lot of use. After paying for the instrument and a few practise books we left the store and headed back to the car. "Do you want to go somewhere to get some lunch or do you just want to head home and we can order pizza?" I thought for a moment "uhm, could we maybe just head home and order pizza, I don't really feel like sitting in a crowded restaurant" dad nodded and we began to make our way back home. upon arriving home I placed the guitar in my room next to my bed before I headed back downstairs and sat on the couch whilst dad ordered from the pizza place, after placing the order we decided to watch a film that we both enjoyed, batman and we watched intently as we awaited the arrival of lunch.

Halfway through the movie my phone began to ring, I fished it out of my bag which I had left beside the couch and I answered already knowing who was going to be on the other end "hey, Andy" there was a pause "are you watching batman without me?" he sounded hurt and I couldn't help but let out a small chuckle at the fact that he could tell what I was watching just by listening through the phone "I might be" I smirked "This is so unfair" he continued to sulk through the phone "so, did you want something?" I asked him wondering why he had called in the first place "oh, yeah I just wanted to let you know that I will be back in the state on Wednesday, I will come and see you as soon as I get off the plane, I just need to know your address, I'm not a creep, I promise" I laughed loudly however it soon turned into a sigh "I'd love to Andy, however I have work" I felt bad even though It wasn't a big deal "oh, well can I see you when you get off?" I smiled at his eagerness to see me "yes Andy, you can. I have to go okay, I'm missing batman" he chuckled "I still can't believe that you're watching that without me, I will see you on Wednesday Cass" I said goodbye before I ended the call and turned my attention back to the TV, however I couldn't help but notice dad glancing at me. Turning towards him I raised my eyebrows "what?" he smiled "nothing" he then turned back to the TV and I sighed inwardly once again turning away and continuing to watch the film.

Short update. updates might be a little slower as I will be going back to college next week and so I will have a lot of work and deadlines xoxoxo enjoy, vote, comment and be sure to give me a follow !!