Was it Real?

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Before you throw your phone at the wall, finish the whole chapter. Deal? Ok good. 😂

I look through the dresser to find some shorts and Tobias's shirt to wear to bed. Tobias went out with some friends to a bar. I hope he didn't drink too much, I don't like that side of him. It's like he's a whole other person, that can't control anything that they do.

As I slip on my pajama shorts I hear the door open. I walk out of the bedroom into the living room to greet him. I see a drunk Tobias wobbling toward me.

"Hey Tris..." he slurs.

"Tobias, why don't you go to bed, since you'll probably have a hangover tomorrow." I say cautiously. He got drunk. I don't want to be one of those controlling girlfriends who makes their boyfriend stay home instead of going out with their friends; but I hate seeing him drunk. Drinking is really common in dauntless, and a way to celebrate. But I hate seeing how people are affected by it.

"But Trisss..." he stumbles to me, "I wanna kiss you!" he says. Him saying this reminds me of the time during initiation he whispered to me "You look good Tris," he didn't realize what he was doing, and he was drunk.

"Tobias, I don't think that's a good idea." I warn him while backing up.

Before I can say anything stumbles on to me and roughly kisses me. I try to push him off but he grabs my arms and presses us together.

"Tobias! Stop!" I scream. I'm afraid of how far he might go since he can't control what he does.

He rips off my shirt while I'm screaming and thrashing; trying to fight him off, or at least escape.

He ignores me and persists. Pulling off my pants.

I was afraid this would happen. That eventually he would get tired of waiting and just want me for sex. But he's drunk he doesn't know what he's doing. Maybe the Tobias that's hiding away right now wouldn't do this.

"Stop!!!" I scream as he throws me on to the bed.

"Tris! Wake up! Wake up!" I hear from a distance.


I wake with a scream and jolt upright. I hear Tobias next to me, "It was just a dream, it's ok," he coos.

But right now I don't know what's real and what's fake. All I know is Tobias tried to force me to get over my fear, whether it was a dream or not, I don't know.

I jump out of bed and scream, "Stay away from me!"

He stands up on the other side of the bed, "Tris, I'm not gonna hurt you. What happened?" He says calmly.

I shake my head and run to the bathroom. I get inside and lock the door as fast as I can. As though there's a ghost in the house and I'm trying to hide from it.

In the mirror I see my face is red and tear streaked. I wipe my eyes and fall to the floor. Just to find myself sobbing again.

It wasn't real, it wasn't real. I try to convince myself. But it seemed real. Tobias wouldn't do that, would he? I guess it just seemed too real because I'm expecting it to happen. I'm expecting him to get tired of me. And not wanting to wait any longer. He's almost a 19 year old virgin because of me. I don't deserve him. He needs to find someone who can give him what he wants.

I'm awoken from my thoughts by a banging on the door.

"Tris, are you ok? Let me in. Tell me what's wrong." He says in a sad voice. This is the Tobias I know. The Tobias that cares about me.

I take a deep breath and try to calm down.

"If I let you in, don't touch me." I say.

"Alright." He says.

I unlock the door and hesitate on opening it. Once I do I back up to the bathroom wall farthest away from the door.

Tobias comes in slowly with sad eyes. I eye the room for a weapon. All I see is scissors and air freshener spray. If anything happens, I'll grab those.

"What happened?" Tobias asks quietly when he sees tears on my face.

"Was it real?" I ask.

"What?" He asks confused.

"Did you go and get drunk with Zeke and Uriah?" I ask carefully while taking a deep breath with my eyes closed.

"No Tris, we stayed in all day. I didn't even step foot out of the apartment," he replies. "Did you have a dream about me?" He asks.

"Y-you-forced-m-me," I get out in between sobs and fall to the floor.

"Tris, I need you to know that I will never force you to do anything, and I didn't date you for sex." He says bending down to my level.

"B-but-you-deserve-s-someone-better-who-who-can-gi-give-you-what-you-need," I stutter.

"What I need isn't sex. I need you. The brave, selfless, smart, kind, honest, beautiful Tris. You complete me. Without you I would be getting drunk because I wouldn't have a reason not to. I wouldn't have anything better to do. But this relationship is so much more than just sex to me. I love you and I'll wait for you Tris." Tobias says.

I smile and look up at him. "I love you too. Thank you. For dealing with me." I say.

"You're worth it." He says with a smile. We stand up and I give him a hug. He pulls back and asks, "Do you want me to sleep on the couch tonight?"

I nod, embarrassed. "Just for tonight."

"Take as long as you need. I don't mind." He says, pressing his lips to my forehead softly.

Faster update than usual! But I guess I'm writing a lot before school hits me in the face. Schools starting Wednesday and I'm not ready to go back. 😰

Anyway I got the inspiration to write this chapter from another divergent no war fan fiction.

Thank you so much for the kind comments and votes, it means a lot! I know I say this in every chapter, but it means so much to me and I hope you guys realize that.

I will be editing some of my early chapters, because they were kind of bad since this is my first fan-fiction.

       Gluten. (It's what I decided to call myself because it's an inside joke with my friends 😂)

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