I Need You (Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Takano Masamune x Onodera Ritsu boyxboy)

Chapter 2

P.o.v

Onodera Ritsu

I understand. I understand it now. All that's changed lately, I know why. It's fine, I'm an adult now, I could handle a few things like this. Over the years, my personality has been changed due to situations like these. Yeah right.

I knew the truth. But all I can do is convince myself I'm alright. What else can I do? I'm not the naive child I was back then, so why?

Why do I want to cry?

Why did I believe in him?

Why am I so affected?

Why do I still love him even now?

Does...he...not love me?

I had hoped that what Takano-san had said was real. It was a misunderstanding back in high school. What about now? Was that a misunderstanding too? No. No way. I knew of the relationship of Takano-san and Yokozawa-san had back in college. There's no way this is a misunderstanding.

My hopes were too high. After all this time, he said such such sweet words, I believed him. But what now?

Choking back the tears, I went to work the next day, knowing I was going to see him. It took so much for me to force myself out the door.

I got to work, sat down, and focused on my work only. Keeping all thoughts about Takano-san away. I realized today was just the beginning of a new cycle but I couldn't bring myself to at least look fine.

Throughout the day, the other Emerald editors were worried asking if I was okay and all I could do was nod. But the one thing I noticed was, Takano-san hadn't come talk to me, not even once.

Was-was he really done with me? Was I not mistaken? After what happened yesterday, I expected myself to be angrier but all I felt was sadness.

Falling into darkness, feeling empty inside, and then I realized.

No matter how many years, betrayals, misunderstandings, fights, I will always love him. I had hoped it was this way with him too, but was it all a lie?

Before I realized it, tears had already started to fall.

"Ricchan? What's wrong?! Are you hurt? Asks Kisa-san with a very worried face.

"Uh um..." And I ran away to the bathroom. When I got there, it all came crashing down on me. Takano-san.

Takano-san...

Takano-san...

I love him. I love him I love him I love him.

But he didn't love me...there was only Yokozawa-san.

I would've so happy that if I had been the one who could have his love, but it wasn't me. After all this time, I hoped for more and more. I was just fooling myself.

I calm down and leave the bathroom to find Takano-san. I really don't want o see him right now so I nod and walk right by him but he grabs my arm.

"T-Takano-san..."

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Urghh I wanna write more but I gotta limit myself with this chapter, this ones kinda a downer... Wonder why Takano took Onoderas arm???