Rogue Hearts

Unresolved Conflicts

Ven

I was quiet the whole way home while Gwen chatted to her 'parents' about the feeling of being a wolf and everything and of how excited she was of the upcoming vacation, all the while munching on some leftovers from dinner. Yup, the three of them really looked like a family and Geo looked genuinely happy. Where do I stand then? With her being happy with her ex... Where do I stand? We haven't even marked each other yet, and the mark that's on her neck was still Anne's. I just have to sigh.

My emotions are not the only problem that I have at the moment though but also this vacation that they planned ever so spontaneously. I mean, I can't believe Geo would agree to that when remote places are only ever remote for humans, not for werewolves. Need I remind her that we're still on the run? Was she really that happy, she even forgot the sole reason why we're here in Yorkshire? I can't believe she's thinking of running back to where we came from.

I was the one who opened the door to the apartment and then I headed to my room immediately. I don't have the energy to talk to anyone at the moment. Tears started streaming down my cheeks the moment I hit the pillow and just buried myself on the bed that's filled with Geo's scent. I can't help but feel disappointed with her really. I mean, we just talked about this earlier... But of course she'd still act that way towards them. She's not even hinting at telling them about us. What am I to her then?

Perhaps I fell asleep a few hours later, because the next thing I knew is the feeling of warmth hitting my face. I opened my eyes and saw streaks of sunlight beaming through my window, so I sat up, made my bed, and took a shower. I went outside and saw Anne already in the kitchen, cooking as always, I quickly went back inside and decided to just eat some biscuits. I then opened my laptop and got to work. About an hour into checking emails and typing away responses, I heard a knock on my door, so I stood up and opened it.

"Hey Ven, breakfast is ready." Geo said with a smile but I didn't smile back.

"Yeah thanks, I already had mine." Came my rather cold answer. She picked up on my tone and gently took my hand.

"What's the matter?" She asked. I almost laughed sarcastically at her question. Is she really going to ask me that?

"Nothing, I'm busy with work." I chose to answer calmly.

"Oh, about work, I took the week off, so we can take Gwen somewhere that she can freely shift..." She trailed off.

"We? As in, you and Anne, and the kids?" I just have to point out. And my words made her raise an eyebrow.

"What? Of course you're coming with us." She stated.

"Why?" I retorted.

"Why not?" Did she not really get me?

"What am I gonna do there? Hurt myself watching your happy family play and hug?" I stated, sternly.

"No... What are you talking about? Of course that's not-" She rambled on but I cut her off.

"What will happen then? Do enlighten me." I challenged, taking my hand off of hers and crossing my arms in front of me.

She searched for the right words to say, her eyes pleading for me to understand, oh I understand, really. I understand how important they are to her that's why she can be this inconsiderate to me.

"Look... I..." She stammered and I just gave her a look, urging her to go on, but she didn't, she just looked away and wiped a stray tear rolling down her cheek, probably realizing everything by now. My heart aches for her but, she's not the only one who's hurt with this. At least, if our situation hurts her, their family reunion can still lift her spirits up. But me? What else do I have other than our incomplete mate bond? Nothing! Cause I left everything for her, why... Why can't she do the same for me?

Geo then stepped away from me and then turned to head to her room, whilst I shut my bedroom door close once again. I worked my butt off all day and didn't even bother to eat, until I eventually logged out. My stomach is already grumbling by 6 pm, but I still refused to go outside and eat, instead, I slept it off.

A searing pain in my stomach woke me up a few hours later, I checked my phone and saw that it's already 10 pm. They're probably asleep now, so I finally decided to break my fasting and eat. I quietly walked out of my room and into the kitchen to prepare something. Then the door suddenly bursts open and in came Geo, walking sluggishly. Out of instinct, I dashed towards her just in time to stop her from staggering into our shoe shelf.

"Hey, what happened to you?" I asked as I held her at arms length to inspect her body for any injuries but saw none. It's just that her eyes are red and are almost giving up on her. The scent of alcohol filled my nostrils when she breathed out a sigh, and I slowly nodded in realization. "Why were you drinking?" I asked, guiding her to the kitchen table and sitting her down on a chair. She didn't answer, just looked at me with a grim expression on her face. "What's the matter?"

"Everything. Everything's the matter." She finally answered, looking away from me, turning her gaze towards their direction. I heaved a sigh.

"Do you want some coffee?" I offered, clearly changing the topic but she's having none of my evasion.

"No, I want you." Saying that, she pulled me towards her, making me sit on her lap. I struggled to get up, but as soon as her arms circled around me, I felt powerless, so I just let her hold me. "I don't want to lose you baby. I really love you. I want our mate bond to work. I want us to work." She stated ever so boldly, her voice cracking at the end and I felt myself trembling as tears started rolling down my cheeks.

"I-I love you too Geo. But this isn't easy for me. I know you want what's best for the kid because you care so much for her, but what about me? What about everything that that decision of yours would ever bring me? We're trying to run away from werewolves Geo, so we're not supposed to go near their territory." There, I said it. The thing that really bothered me.

She inhaled deeply and tightened her hold of me. "I'm so sorry baby. I know I'm probably asking too much from you already..." She trailed off.

"But what? You can't let them down?" I finished for her and she was quiet for a long time. We just sat there like that, tears streaming down our faces as the silent answer to my question became loud. "I think we should just let this go." I said when I finally spoke.

"L-let go? O-of what?" She stuttered, turning me around in her lap, so that we'd see each other eye to eye. Her brown eyes looked very shattered and I couldn't bring myself to hurt her even more.

"This argument. Let's just forget it ever happened."I said and her eyes narrowed.

"It won't help fix our problem Ven." She said sternly.

"What do you want me to do then?" I retorted while trying to keep my voice just above a whisper so as not to wake them up.

"Please stay and give me time to sort things out, I will keep my word to you, just please let me. And don't push me away, damn it hurts Ven! Even alcohol can't drown it out." Her words pierced through my heart as she placed her forehead in mine.

Perhaps she's right. I should give her a chance to stay true to her words. Perhaps I should stay firmer and not try to flee at the first sign of trouble. I shouldn't be making conclusions so easily, right? With these in mind, I found myself slowly nodding wordlessly. Seeing the slightest positive response that I gave, she sealed our lips on a very emotional kiss. She pulled me close and then suddenly stood up, carrying me with her to her room, not breaking the kiss. She fumbled to unlock the door using one hand, so I wrapped my legs tighter around her waist and my arms around her neck. When we managed to get in and lock the door, Geo gently laid me down and hovered above me.

"Ven..." She whispered when we pulled away.

"Yes?" I replied, still out of breath.

I waited for her to respond but she just stared at me and then dropped her head at the crook of my neck, cuddling beside me. "Mate."

"Hmmm?" I hummed, stroking her hair to calm her down.

"I'm drunk." She just said, the tip of her nose grazing the sensitive skin on my neck and I tried my hardest not to let out a sound of please.

"I know that. Do you want something hot to drink?" I just basically repeated my question earlier but she just shook her head.

"Stop asking me that. I only want you. I missed you so much today." She responded so I caved in and just let her engulf me in an embrace so deeply felt.

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