Dear Diary,
I turned fifteen yesterday! I woke up that morning and Saturn made me pancakes! It was so good. Ganymede and Callisto both said happy birthday to me and that made me so happy.
At school, Haumea was waiting for me at the DnD club, with a birthday cake and a gift (so sweet!!!) he got me that stuffed plushie I've always wanted, the cake was so good too. We both went to class and then after class we went back to the club where MakeMake had another adventure for us. He and Haumea made an adventure, for me! On finding me a birthday gift, with jokes and shenanigans that involve summoning a demon. It was so much fun!
Haumea took me to his house, the twins said hello and they went off to a slumber party. It was just me and Haumea, alone. But I wasn't afraid, I could never be scared when Haumea was here.
That when the topic of sex came up, I never knew what the point of having sex was. I voiced my opinion that relationship's should be based on loving each other through touching appropriately and understanding each other through feelings, not through putting something inside you and calling that "love" that's just being hurt and the other doesn't stop until they have what they want, and the other doesn't get anything out of it.
Haumea listened, he understood. But he also said that relationships don't always have to be about having sex just to still love each other, it's about putting your trust in your partner, trust that they'll respect you, love you, and not hurt you.
Haumea is so sweet, I don't deserve him. And I know that I do.
We made out on his couch until we heard the door knocking. I knew it was Ganymede since I told him to pick me up around dinner time. I kissed Haumea and wished him a good night.
Ganymede went off on his little tangents, or as I like to call them, "temper tantrums," about me being safe around Haumea and to use protection.
I get it, he's protective of me, but sometimes it's suffocating. I just want to do what I want without people judging me and my decisions. But I know that sometimes that always leads to something bad happening.
We had lasagna for dinner, it was my favorite food. Saturn and dad were all flirty and lovey dovey with each other, they try to be subtle about it but we can always see them being obvious.
I had a wonderful birthday.
Can't wait to see what the week will bring.
