✨LOVE.LATIBULE.LESSON✨

✨wondering late night✨

           
❤️‍🔥  To all the PPL who feels lost sometimes and are slowly forgetting what they were before.

Trust me you all are becoming the bestest version of yourself and getting closer to what you desire or destined to have.❤️‍🔥

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It was 2 a.m . After offering Tahajjud namaz I went to my bed, staring at the dim light coming from the balcony I was thinking about myself, I did something and now what have I become, there is a saying, don't make a joke of anything, otherwise you will never know when you will become like them. I was also in a similar condition 8 years ago, while thinking this a stream of tears started flowing from the corner of my eyes.
I remembered that day when I had gone to the wedding of some distant relative of my father. We had a very good time there and I was only 11 years old then. I made many friends there. I was very funny at that time. I used to make fun of anyone without thinking, which was not a good thing.
At that time I was 11 years old and there I met a person whom I used to call brother, he was very nice but at that time I was not smart enough to differentiate between good and bad, nor did I know about respect or disrespect , I used to look at everyone the same whether they treated me good or bad.
Me and my few friends, all of us used to sit in a group on the terrace in the evening. The atmosphere was quiet and pleasant , everyone was happy. He was also there ...that boy , and his behaviour was very friendly with everyone.
Everyone told their story in different ways. One of my friends told him something very funny about me that I often fall on the road, sometimes by slipping and sometimes by falling.
I felt very ashamed at that but he was laughing helplessly.
To put an end to his laughter, I told him about an accident in which, in his attempt to become a hero, he fell off the bike and was badly hurt. He must have been angry, it was clearly evident from his face that he was angry at me, but he laughed and forgot about it. I am sure that if some other person had said this, he would have broken his face.He told me everything one day when we talked for the first time. All his friends were betrayers. I felt pity for him but also laughed that how can someone be so sad after losing his friend. But I used to love him but he was a man. I had no emotions for him at the time.
After a few days, we all went back to our homes and got busy with our lives.
I had completely forgotten that incident that day, but my dirty act of making fun of everyone was still the same.

Well, right after one year, things started happening to me which I could not even imagine, the status of my friend who had been my friend for the last 7 years suddenly changed for me, those close people whom I considered good, started proving to be bad for me, crying and sobbing and crying in the late hours of the night, which I used to hate, was common with me but not in front of anybody and I was feeling alone.
I who used to laugh and talk all day now started becoming silent. I was understanding people and their pretenses. There was not a single one among me who cared for me. No one; they did not care for me so much that they did not even notice that now I am not like before. Punishing myself which now started giving me peace had become a habit for me. I ate only water and two cucumbers daily for the entire 6 months. No one noticed. I started becoming weak due to my poor diet and also became very thin. Everyone thought that I was on a diet but no one thought it was important to ask.Now I had forgotten how to laugh. No matter how much anyone tried, I did not laugh. Rather I tried to enter their minds. My psychology filled my heart with desire and sadness too.
One night while lying down I was remembering my old days, those days when we all got married, then I remembered that letter, now I was able to understand every thing, every habit of that letter, now only that letter started to seem true to me, he did not keep anything in his heart, he used to tell everything nor did he lie to keep anyone's heart.It was 2 o'clock in the night, everyone was asleep and I was sobbing remembering that day.
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*Will upload part-2soon❤️✨
Wed/2/July/2025.