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(Chapter23)

Disarray's POV


"Are you sure you want to do this?"

I looked up into Conner's beautiful gray eyes. He's asking me if I want him now. I do, so much. These past couple of weeks have been hell, we've gotten so close, could we finally do it now? Passing temptation? Yes, tonight is the night I lose it to him.

"Yes," I whispered. He leaned down and kissed me softly. His hands roamed my body and I shivered in delight. I could anticipate pleasure coming.

I looked up and he kissed me again. I started kissing him and in an instant I knew something had changed. Conner didn't kiss like this. I opened my eyes and screamed.

"Help!" I screamed and looked into the eyes of the one who wanted to rape me.

"You'll enjoy this," he growled and started ripping my clothes off. I started screaming and he kept hitting me. He looked at me with pure lust and anger.

I kept typing to pull away and he just continued to push and hit me with every struggle. He pulled my jeans off and I kicked him and he hit my on the head making everything to go blurry.


"Disarray!" Conner! I felt so tired.
"Disarray! Wake up! Princess?!" His sexy voice exclaimed.

I opened my eyes and saw Conner looking down at me with deep concern. Oh god! It was just a dream, but it seemed so real. I sighed in relief and threw myself at Conner. Then I don't know why I started crying against his chest. He just laid there with me rubbing my back, calming me down.

A couple of minutes later, I look up at him and he was looking up to the ceiling with a hard facial expression.

I pulled my hand up and touched his face and he looked down at me an in instant.

"Are you okay?" he asked and sat me up with him. He wiped my tears away and looked at me for an answer. I looked into his eyes and nodded.

"You were dreaming about….," he said and looked at me, watching if I knew what he was going to say. I knew what he meant and I nodded. He frowned and his eyes turned hard.

I put my hand on his cheek and his face went soft, I smiled, I like having an affect on him.

"I'm okay now, it was just a dream," I said.
"Yeah, that's true, but still.. just knowing that he was so close to getting you…," he said and his face turned mad.

"But he didn't and let's just stop talking about it okay?" I said and kissed his cheek. He sighed and stood up and went into his closet. He came out in his boxers and then went to the restroom and then straight downstairs. He still had an upset expression and I frowned and scooted up to the bed and snuggled under the covers.

He came back and went to his side and then scooted near me. He put his arm under my head and I wrapped my arms around him and took a deep breath.



I opened my eyes and turned to see Conner still deeply asleep. I crawled out of his arms slowly and then took some medicine.

It was already 10 in the morning and I saw Conner's phone light up. It was a text message saying 'Hey, I'm done packing!' from his sister. I didn't mean to read the text, but that meant that she was coming to spend Christmas with us. I was actually very excited to meet her.

I went to my room and took a warm shower and changed into sweats and a tight long sleeve. I grabbed my phone and went downstairs. I had many texts as usual and deleted them all and then called to make a flight time for Conner's sister. She would be on the plan today at 9 pm and 5am or 6am. I sighed a little frustrated because I couldn't get a earlier time.

I went back upstairs and Conner was barely sitting up on the bed.

"Hey," I said and sat on the corner of the bed.
"How are you feeling?" he asked and grabbed my arm and pulled me near him. I smiled and rolled over him and sat on him.

"I feel better and I called about your sister's flight," I said, looking down at him. He raised an eyebrow.

"I haven't even told you about it yet..," he asked a little unsure. I knew he didn't like to ask for things, but I knew he wanted to see his sister and I wanted to make him happy.

"Well.. Like an hour ago you're phone lit up and it was a text from your sister saying that she was done packing and then I remembered that she was going to come for the holiday," I said and he looked at me highly.

"Thanks Princess," he said and gave me a super adorable smile I've never seen before. My heart fluttered and I gave him a kiss and pulled back.

"The flight will leave today at 9pm in California and she will be here at 5am here," I said bad frowned.

"That's cool, don't worry about the time, I think that will excite Alex more," he said and chuckled, I laughed and then told him where she needed to go at the airport. Then he called her.

He was trying to explain things to her until I finally rolled my eyes at him.

"Baby, just give me the phone," I said and waved my hand at him, he grinned and handed me the phone. I turned and I could feel the blush on my cheeks turning. I never called him baby..

"Hello?" I said.
"Umm.. Hi?" Alexandria said and I smiled. She sounded really shy.
"Okay so.." I started and explained where she was going to be and do when she lands. She thanked me a lot of times before passing her back to Conner. They talked for a couple minutes before hanging up.

He got up and went to make something to eat for us and meanwhile I called Valerie. I asked her to go shopping with me so I could buy Conner something. She said yeah and I was happy, but I still didn't know what to get Conner.

I went downstairs and he was in the kitchen looking sexy as he made food. He went to get something from the fridge and I skipped to him and hugged him from behind. He turned and smirked at me.

"Can't stay away from me?" he teased and I laughed.

I helped him finish making the food and we sat down and chatted easily. It was so easy to talk to Conner. I never really felt talking to my exs boyfriends like this and with Conner it was so effortless.

We ended just cleaning up the house and doing laundry for awhile until I told him I was going shopping with Valerie.

"You're leaving now?" he said as he put his shirt of getting ready to go to work.

"Yeah, I'm just gunna go pick up Valerie first," I said and he nodded and then buckled his jeans. I bit my lip and looked at him. He had his messy hair which made him look sexy as hell.

I just had a pair of jeans on with Toms and a long sleeve shirt.

"You need a jacket or a sweater if you're going out," Conner said and put his hoodie on. I rolled my eyes and went to my room. The sweater I got from him was in the wash so I grabbed a Hollister one. I grabbed my bag and went to his room. He was looking through his phone.

"Have you drank your medicine?" he asked without looking up surprising me slightly.

"I drank some when I woke up, does that count?"
"Nope, go get some again," he said looking up at me. I rolled my eyes and obeyed.

"Okay, I'm leaving now," I said frowning and went to sit on his lap. He wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"Be careful, alright?" he said and I nodded. He smiled and kissed my forehead and let me go.



"I'm outside!!" I texted Valerie.
"Come at the door!" she texted back and I was puzzled and parked my Range Rover on the curb.

I knocked on the door and Valerie answered immediately.

"Hey! Sorry come in," she said and moved aside. I walker in and looked around. The house seemed so cozy and nice. They already had a Christmas tree. We're gunna have to get one tomorrow.

I turned and saw Valerie's parents sitting on the couch.


"Hello," I said politely and they grinned at me.

"This is Conner's girlfriend," Valerie said and I couldn't help but smile. I like the sound of that, but in reality I was actually his fiancé.

They stood up and smiled at me.

"Nice to meet you, dear," Valerie's mom said and I shook her hand and also her dad's.

"C'mon, let's go to my room," Valerie said, pushing me softly to the direction she wanted me to go. I got into her room and it actually took me by surprise. It wasn't like I thought it wad going to be. She had a couple of posters and I recognized an Alesana one, but that was it.

"Sorry, I just need to finish doing my hair," she said and I realized it was wet.

"Go ahead," I said and sat on her bed. I looked around and I saw a picture of her and Conner and then of one of me and her. I smiled. I'm thinking about asking her to be my maid of honor.

We finally are on the way to another mall that's not the one Conner's working at.

"What should I get him? I know I'm going to get his sister a vintage bag because he said she was into vintage things," I said.

"Hmm... Well I ready got him a present, and it's Alesana tickets, but I don't know what else he would like," she said and I frowned.

We got out of the car and then some boys were already hollering at me. Valerie just laughed at my annoyance and walked by my side.

"I think I'm going to get him the new iPhone 4 since he has the 3...," I told Valerie and started walking to the Verizon store where they sold them. I think he's gunna like it, his phone is really scratched.

We went Hot Topic and I bought him all sorts of shirts and piercings. I bought Valerie a shirt even though she didn't want me too.

Then I bought Conner sister's 2 vintage bags.

We left the mall a while later after buying myself some new lingerie I'm planning to wear for Conner. I knew he'd like it. I blushed to myself and Valerie was just looking at me confused, but didn't say anything.

As we were walking to my car, my phone began to buzz. It's Conner. I smiled and answer.

"Hey baby," I said without thinking. I blushed lightly again. I'm so stupid.

"Hey Princess, I'm just calling to see if you're doing good," he said. How sweet! Anthony never did that even when I had the flu.

"I'm doing good, I just finished shopping with Valerie," I said and looked at Val.

"Tell him I said hi," she said and grinned.

"Val says hi," I told Conner.
"Tell her I said what's up, anyways, just be careful and make sure to eat something okay?" he said and I smiled. I loved how he's worries about me.

"Yes yes," I said and he chuckled.
"Alright, see ya later Princess," he said.
"'Kay, bye!"

I put my phone in my pocket and unlocked my car and Valerie was just looking at me, it was obvious she wanted to ask me something. I went to the trunk and put the bags there.

"What do you want to ask me?" I asked her as I started driving.

"Well... I know you and Conner are being forced to be together, but do you like him?" she asked.

Do I like him?

Oh yes I do. I think I liked him since the beginning. I mean, we get along very good and he's incredibly sweet and such a dork! I can't even describe him... He's just that great. I'm just aching to go to him and just give him a huge hug.

"Yeah... I do," I mumbled as I drove to her house. And she grinned highly.

She was about to say something, but my phone rang again. It was a red light and I looked at the caller ID. Daniel!

"Hello?" I answered and put it on speaker.
"Hey Dez, you're finally answering your phone," he said annoyed and I laughed.

"You know I don't use my phone much anymore, anyways, what's up?" I asked.

"I was wondering what were you going to do for Christmas?"  he asked.

"Well, I'm going to spend it with Conner and his sister Alexandria is going to be flying in tomorrow morning," I said and he stayed silent for a little.

I took it off speaker and held the phone to my ear so it could be a little more private incase he says something stupid like he usually does.

"Well, can I go spend it with you guys? I was looking at the flight times and I could get a flight in 2 hours," he said and I grinned.

"Yes! You should come," I said.
"Yeah? Okay cool, I guess I should pack a little," he said sounding happy.

"Yeah so right now it's 5 so the flight to New York to here is just a couple of hours, just call me when you're at the airport," I said.

"'Kay, give me Conner's number incase you don't have your phone on you," he said, I rolled my eyes and gave it to him and then we said goodbye.

"I wanna meet your brother," Valerie said and I nodded.
"You will," I said and smiled.

I dropped her off and then I remembered I needed supply to rap the gifts and things like that. I grinned and headed towards the mall.

I went to the supply store and bought the things I needed and then I headed up to Hottopic. I was aching just to see him. I mean.... Now that I realize that I actually have feelings for my forced fiancé... Is weird, but I wanna see him.

I walked towards the store with a bunch of guys staring at me and I ignored them completely. There was a time that I actually loved getting guys attention, but I hate it now. That only person's attention I want is Conner's, and I think I have it.

I walked in and immediately he was in sight, looking at me. He gave me a sign to wait a little. I was watching him a girl look for a shirt and it was obvious that she was checking him out. I don't blame her. Conner is so sexy... His shaggy black hair... His eyes... Everything.

"Still perving on me yet, baby?" Conner asked with a smirk and walked towards me. I laughed and rolled my eyes. He intwined our hands and then Kyle came. He grinned at me, obviously to get my attention and failing completely. I scooted closer to Conner's side and he chuckled.

"Hey Disarray," Kyle said in a flirty way. Wow, he's stupid! He's trying to flirt with me knowing that I was going out with Conner.

I just gave him a smile and turned back to Conner.

He was looking down at me, and his eyes were annoyed.

He pulled me aside and I laughed. He rolled his eyes knowing what I was thinking.

"Daniel is going to come spend Christmas with us?" I said in a form of a question.

"Really? That's cool, when's he coming?" he asked happily. I knew Conner and Daniel got along since they met each other. I knew Daniel would have approved of Conner if we dated without being forced to be together.

"He's probably getting a flight like in an hour and the flight isn't long at all, he should be here like at 8 or 9," I said and he was thinking about something.

"Are you going to pick him up?" he asked.
"Yeah.. Why?"

"I don't want you to go alone," he said and I couldn't help but smile and then he gave me a confused look and I shook my head.

"I will be fine, don't worry. I'll make sure I'm on my guard the whole time," I said and he sighed and still had a frown.

"Fine, just be very careful," he mumbled.
"Yes yes, now go back to work," I said and gave him a peck. His lips twitched fighting a smile and went back. I felt Kyle's eyes on me and it made me feel uncomfortable.

I drove home and left all the things I bought on my closet and went down stairs.

A couple of hours late Daniel calls me to go pick him up from the airport. I grabbed my sweater and went on my way excitedly.

When I got there, he was sitting on the bench waiting for me. I honked the horn and he turned to see me. He grinned and ran towards me. He threw his duffle bag in the back and jumped in the front.

"Hey!" I exclaimed.
"Hey, how have you been? Where's Conner?" he asked.

"Oh, he's working, he'll be home like in an hour," I said.
"He works?" he asked.
"Yupp, at Hottopic."

"Cool, cool... Umm, how have you been since...," he asked unsure. I look at him and he seemed upset too. I gave him a sly smile and shrugged. I wasn't going to mention my dreams or anything, I just didn't want to talk about it.

We chatted a little. He was talking about College and girls. Daniel's 19, and he gets a lot of girls. He likes attention, everyone thinks he's a jerk, but he isn't. I loved how he and Conner get along well.

We got home right around 10 because of traffic and I saw Conner's car already parked. I smiled and parked.

"You seem excited to see him," Daniel stated when I got out. I blushed and rolled my eyes at him. I walked into the living room. Conner was standing in the middle of the living room, shirtless. He looked so hot, I wet myself...


Daniel's POV


I sat at the bench just waiting for Disarray. As girls walked by me, checking me out as usual, I would just give them a smirk. They love it.

I started thinking about Disarray. I really hope she's doing okay. I couldn't believe she was almost going to get raped. I was mad, I couldn't think about anyone hurting my little sister.

And then there's Conner. I was in shock to see how close they were. And especially when I caught them kissing, I was shocked, but didn't show it. And then I caught them a second time.

My mom told me how much it looked like they didn't like each other. That really changed. When I saw Conner at the hospital, I was now seriously shocked to see how much he cared about her. I mean, he was crying and Disarray was crying out for him. She felt better with him than with us. And he's her arranged boyfriend. That's when I really knew they could actually love each other. I would see her stare at him and he would stare at her. Then they would give each other a loving smile. I knew she was happy, but she wasn't happy when she found out.

She cried al the time, begging our dad to cancel the marriage. She turned a little bitter towards them, but not a lot because she still loved them.

And when I had to pick her up, she was all sad because she didn't want to leave him.

I heard a honk and I looked up and saw her. She gave me a happy smile and I grinned.

I threw my bag at the back and went to the passenger seat.

"Hey!" she said and her blue eyes that matched mine were happy. She looked a little sick, but I knew she would be okay.

"Hey, how have you been? Where's Conner?" I asked.

"Oh, he's working, he'll be home like in an hour," she said and I could already tell she misses him.

"He works?" I asked surprised.
"Yupp, at Hottopic," she said and smiled.

"Cool, cool... Umm, how have you been since...," I trailed off knowing she would know what I'm referring too.

She just gave me a sly smile and looked away. I knew there was something, but she didn't want to talk about it and I wasn't going to make her either.

"How's school?" she asked raising an eyebrow. I laughed and rolled my eyes at her. She probably thought I was slacking off again. I wasn't. I'm studying to be a athletic trainer. I needed good grades so I wouldn't get kicked out of school and football.

"Good, good and so are the ladies," I teased and she laughed.

"Typical. Just don't get no one pregnant," she said joking, but I knew she was serious. She says that because to her I'm a "man-whore", I mean I did sleep with a lot of girls.....

"I'm not that stupid, Dez," I said and she nodded.

We got to the house and I saw her eyes brighten when she saw that the lights were on and Conner's car was parked.

"You seemed excited to see him," I teased and she rolled her eyes at me, but blushed at the same time. Ha, she knows I'm right.

I got my bag and saw that she was already walking to the door. I went behind her and then Conner was in the room. He didn't even look at me, but his eyes snapped to her right away and I felt like I was invading them. Disarray smiled at him and he gave her a smile that made her blush for some reason. Love makes you do some weird shit.. It seems.

Disarray walked to him and he leaned down to give her a quick kiss.

"Hey dude," he said to me and grinned.

"What's up!" I said and we did our hand shake. Disarray just shook her head and laughed.

We just stayed in the living room talking and then Conner made food. Disarray followed him.

I went up to one of the rooms and took a quick shower. I put some sweats and a random t-shirt and went downstairs. I went to the kitchen and smirked. Conner was hugging Disarray from behind.

I walked to the fridge and they just looked at me and he pulled away from her.

After we ate, I went up to my room and just watched TV. I went to the rest room and then I went to Disarray's room to ask her something, but she wasn't there. She must be in Conner's room... And I'm not going to watch them eat each other's faces again. I don't like seeing my little sister like that.

I went to sleep.

I heard noises and I groaned and opened my eyes. It was 4:34 am! I stood up and went outside my door.

I saw Conner walking out of his room, he looked like he was going somewhere and then Disarray came out his room.

"Where are you guys going right now?" I asked confused and Conner grinned.

"Gunna go pick up my little sister," he said and Disarray smiled.

"The airport called saying that her flight will be in like in an 45 minutes or so," Disarray said and put her shoes on.

"Can I go?" I asked.

"Yeah, if you want," Conner said and went downstairs. I nodded and went to my room. I put some jeans on and then a hoddie and didn't bother to fix my messed up hair. I put my loafers and went down stairs.

Conner was with Dez waiting for me.

"Let's go," Conner said and went to his black Range Rover and locked all the doors. Disarray went in front with him and I had to go to the back.

He started driving and then he just put some music on. A band named The Misfits and I actually liked them.

While we were on the freeway, Conner was driving with one hand because he was holding Disarray's hand with the other. Wow.

We got to the airport.

"Should we wait for her inside? She's never came before that's why," Disarray said as Conner parked.

"Yeah, let's go," he said. Right when they got next to each other, he pulled her with him, looking very protective.

We walked to the gate where Conner's sister was going to come out of.

We sat there and Disarray was leaning against Conner falling asleep and then she did.

"How has she been since... You know?" I asked and he frowned.

"Well... She doesn't like being alone a lot, she gets scared when she alone. She had a dream and she woke up crying," he said upset and looked at Disarray.

I didn't know what to say because I had a feeling if I said something it could come out stupid.

A few minutes later she woke up and smiled shyly.

We started talking and then a girl squeaked Conner's name. I turned and I raised an eyebrow. This girl was really, really cute. She wasn't so short. She had big gray eyes, she had a nice body. She had nice brown hair spilling down her shoulders and a duffle bag. I stood up.

Conner stood up faster and went to her. She smiled brightly and ran to him. He hugged her really tight lifting her off the ground.

"I missed you, Alex." I heard Conner tell her.
"Me too! Mom and dad say hi," she said. Wow, cute voice too.

Alexandria's POV

I got off the plane and I went where Conner's arranged fiancé told me too. She actually sounded really nice and not like I thought she would. Apparently my mom told me that it looked like they really hated each other. Now they get along.

I walked and saw Conner sitting down with a blonde girl who I guess was Disarray resting on him. And a really attractive blonde guy sitting across from them.

I was so excited to see my brother, I've really missed him.

"Conner!" I exclaimed and they all looked at me. Conner stood up and ran towards me. I smiled and went towards him and he grabbed into a tight hug pulling me off the ground. I laughed.

"I missed you Alex," he said and I smiled.
"Me too! Mom and dad said hi," I said and regretted immediately. I'm so stupid, I know Conner doesn't like it when I mention them. He just shrugged and then turned the girl.

She was standing near and looked at me shyly. Wow, she's like so pretty! I feel intimidated in front of her. I felt like hiding myself.

"Alex, this is Disarray," Conner said looking at her. Wow! I've never seen Conner look at someone like that. He's smiling. Smiling! Really?!

"Hi Alex," Disarray said sweetly and hugged me. I felt shy and hugged her back. She pulled back and smiled, then looked at Conner.

"I need to use the restroom," she said.
"Okay, we'll be back," Conner said and left with her.

I turned and saw the boy who looked a lot like Disarray looking at me. I don't know why my heart started beating faster. He's gorgeous now that I seem him clearly.

"Hi," he said and gave me a beautiful smile.
"Hi," I said and smiled to me. He grinned.

"Let me help you," he said and grabbed my duffle bag. I blushed. He's extremely hot.

"I'm Daniel, Disarray's brother by the way," he said looking down at me with his amazing blue eyes.

"Alexandria," I said and he smiled at me showing one dimple! Wow, that's adorable!


Daniel's POV

Wow.. She's like really cute…

Conner & Disarray's POV

We saw Daniel and Alex smile at each other… uh-oh...




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PS: I've changed Alexandria's and Daniel's ages. Alex is currently 16 going to be 17, Daniel is 19 going to be 20! :)) I just wanted to add something new for no reason. I suck.

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