𝐌𝐀𝐃𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄

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𝗙𝗟𝗢𝗥𝗗𝗜𝗔
𝗔'𝗭𝗔𝗥𝗜𝗔𝗛 𝗠𝗢𝗡𝗘𝗭

Today I was gonna tell my mama what happened to me four years ago. The date was December 23rd, and somehow, A'zariah woke up with the sense to tell her mama what happened to her all those years ago.

It was long overdue A'zariah knew that. She didn't know why she didn't immediately tell her mama what happened. Maybe because the old Azzy was scared of what she would think, scared because maybe she wouldn't believe her like her own father did, but A'zariah knew now that her mama was gonna believe her. She wasn't like him. A'zariah wasn't scared anymore like the old her was five months ago.

I turned to Ma'khari, who was rubbing my thigh as he was scrolling on his phone. "Ma'khari?" I said, and Ma'khari placed his phone down on the bed, placing all his attention on me. "Yeah, Azzy?" He said, looking at me.

"Uhm, imma tell my mama what happened to me. Today." I said looking at him, i didn't know why it was so easy to talk to Ma'khari maybe it was the way he was always there for me since the beginning, the way he would listen to me, the way he never judged me. It only half of the things A'zariah loved about Ma'khari, her thoughts said unconsciously. Azzy, not even registering what her mind just said.

Ma'khari pulled his arm around my waist, pulling my body next to his, as close as possible. I layed my head on his chest it was like a reflex.

"I'm so proud of you mama. I know the shit you went through was hard as hell, but the fact that you can talk about it now, Azzy shows how strong of a person you are ma'. I see that shit from you every day, Azzy. I see you grow into a better you every day. I see everything about you mama. Every single thing about you Azzy, I see it. Inside and outside. I'm proud of you that you can be vulnerable with your mama and confinde in her, after everything. I'm so fucking proud of you Azzy on my ma'." He said, his brown eyes looking into A'zariah's soft brown ones.

Ma'khari's words made her heart beat faster and her body warm. A'zariah smiled put her hands on both sides of his face, her hands touching his skin. Ma'khari rolled rolled his lip in her mouth and pulled it out, then smiled at Azzy showing his pearly white teeth.

"I see you too khari, i see everything about you too." With that statement lingering in the air between them A'zariah smiled and looked at him. She was getting way better with maintaining eye contact with him. A'zariah then kissed his lips. To A'zariah it felt like Ma'khari always knew the right things to say to her. He was emotionally intelligent. His words always putting comfort in Azzy.

A'zariah was now in the mirror getting ready to go to her mama's house. Today, her hair was straightened into a claw clip ponytail, the clawlip being light green, her favorite color. A'zariah had on a light yellow waffle knit jacket that showed a little bit of her stomach, with the matching flared sweatpants that complimented her complexion, with the "Candy" multicolor nike dunks. A'zariah had sliver pandora bracelets around her wrists, with a sliver necklace around her neck, and her plump lips were coated with lip liner and lipgloss around them.

"Fuck! My Azzy so pretty" Ma'khari said coming behind her, wrapping one of his arms around her waist. His other hand traveling down her back, then slapping and grabbing her ass and some of her coochie, rolling his lip in his mouth.

"Kharii!" I said laughing, pulling away from him. "You gotta be stopped bye!" I said laughing.

"Hell nah and im driving yo pretty ass over there, c'mon" Ma'khari said smiling, tapping her ass.

I was now at the steps of my mama's house, i didn't open the door yet. I was over here thinking what i was gonna say. I felt like deja vu again, back to the first time being at Ma'khari house meeting Jadayah. But this time it was my own mama. This time, I wasn't overly anxious like I used to be. I wasn't breathing erratically like I used to. It felt like her anxiousness and breathing calmed down since I started living with Ma'khari. I shook my head, breaking my thoughts and opening the door.