Fame, Lies, and Love (Mikhaiah Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

Aiah Arceta.

Kinabukasan, paggising ko, hindi ko maiwasang magtampo nang makita ko si Mikha na abala sa pag-eempake ng gamit niya para sa flight niya sa Paris. Kaya pala nung mga nakaraang araw madalas siyang inaabot ng madaling araw, kasi minadali ang lahat ng schedule ng movie nila ni Luke dahil may upcoming movie. I wasn't supposed to be affected, but I couldn't help it.

Bakit ba ako apektado? Ano bang karapatan ko para maging ganito? It's not like we're anything more than friends, but... I hated the way my heart reacted to the thought of her being away for months.

Tapos, hindi pa natapos doon. May dagdag pang kakainisan- si Sophia. Of course, she's part of the movie, and now, I couldn't shake off the image of them working closely together. Sabay pa sa lahat ng yun, may halong irita at tampo sa dibdib ko.

I crossed my arms, watching her move around, packing the last of her things into her suitcase. I stayed quiet, trying not to show how much I was seething inside. Part of me wanted to lash out, ask her why she couldn't have told me earlier about her new project, about Sophia, about everything. But what right did I have?

"Ready na?" tanong ko, hindi maitatago ang inis sa tono ko. I tried to make it sound casual, but I knew I was failing.

She paused for a second, as if she sensed the tension in the air. "Yeah. Just need to grab my stuff," Mikha answered, her voice surprisingly calm.

Fine. Gusto ko nang mag-walk out. Gusto ko na lang talikuran siya at magtampisaw sa galit ko. Pero anong mangyayari kung aalis ako? Bakit ko pa ba ipapakita ang nararamdaman ko?

"Is everything okay?" Mikha asked, now looking directly at me, her eyes soft but unreadable.

I wanted to snap. I wanted to say everything that had been bugging me, but instead, I just nodded, forcing a smile. "I'm fine."

But deep down, I felt like I was breaking. Aalis siya para sa Paris. At kasama si Sophia. I kept telling myself it was just a project, but why did it feel like something else?

Habang pinapanood ko siyang inaayos ang mga gamit niya, hindi ko maiwasang mag-isip. Minsan, nakakasakal lang. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari sa buhay namin ni Mikha. Every time she does something, it feels like I'm being dragged along whether I like it or not. I don't even know if I should be angry or if I should just accept it.

Biglang nag-ring ang phone ko, at para bang sa sobrang kabigatan ng pakiramdam ko, tinignan ko lang ang screen at hindi tinanggap. It was a call from Stacey. Siguro may kailangan na naman siya. I felt like I had no energy to answer her. Instead, I stared at Mikha who was trying to make everything perfect for her trip.

"Pwede ba, Mikha? Pwede ba wag ka muna umalis." I muttered to myself.

Mikha glanced up at me, her brow furrowed in confusion. "What was that?"

Wala na akong nasabi. Hindi ko na kayang magsalita pa. I just turned my back and walked towards the door, trying my best to control the feeling rising in my chest. Bago pa ako makalabas, I heard her call out, "Aiah, if you need to say something, just say it."

Pero, anong sasabihin ko? Hindi ko alam. Ayaw ko na lang magpaliwanag at magtampo. Baka mas lalo lang lumala ang lahat. Kaya tuloy lang ako. Pero sa bawat hakbang ko, ang sakit ng bawat iniisip ko.