Dearest, In My Memories | JAECHAN

eight.

Dear Jaeyoon,

7:00 A.M. — I woke up to an emptiness within the house. Not a single trace of you within your disheveled bed sheets, not a mess in the kitchen counter. No text message, no sticky note. My love, what are you hiding from me?

My heart aches every time I think of you. Please, don't keep me in the dark.

9:06 A.M. — I made a nice breakfast for myself. I made some delicious blueberry pancakes, and I topped it off with a little whipped cream, some strawberries at the top. I think you would've liked it, since it's all sweets. I've yet to hear from you. I wonder if you were suddenly called in for work... I'll probably call you around 11, that's your lunch time, right?

9:49 A.M. — Youngbin called me. Bakery is closed for a few days since he's taking a few vacation days to fetch ingredients from a farm he knows. It's the perfect excuse for us to spend more time together, don't you think so?

11:16 A.M. — You answered my phone call. You don't have the slightest idea of the warmth that flooded my ribs and had swelled around my heart, engulfing it tightly. Hearing your voice is always a huge comfort to me. You were, indeed, at work. Staff shortage, you said, due to some of the flooded roads. And yeah, I can see that. They talked about it on the news. Bummer though, I wish you could've had some of my pancakes. I can make them for you next time, my love.

Although, as I think about it, leaving to work early means... you come home early! Aah, now I'm excited!

2:37 P.M. — Eee! You're home! You're home! (You reek of sweat though, did you forget to put deodorant on? Don't worry, it doesn't make me love you any less.)

I had given you the tightest hug as soon as you came home, pressed my lips against your cheek, and hummed in delight at the feel of your arms around my waist and your chin on my shoulder. Ah, I could be in your hold forever.

3:15 P.M. — Mm, you sure are full of surprises. You caught onto your sweaty predicament before I even told you, and you dipped into the shower, after asking me to join you. And well, I didn't join you last time, so I did this time. You didn't see that one coming, huh?

But man, I wasn't expecting you to pull that little move on me. Your hand at the side of my head, slightly towering over me as the water cascaded on our skin. Steam filling the bathroom.

I watched as your chest heaved slightly, our breaths mingling with each other's breath. Jae, you had the faintest rosy cheeks as you subconsciously wetted your lips, your eyes gazing down to my own while traveling back to my gaze. Simply going back and forth.

Now, I know you're going to tell me "Chanhee, why are you writing so explicitly about what we did?" tomorrow when you've read this, or you probably won't say anything. I'm dipping my toes in the water...

Continuing on, you leaned a little closer, and Jaeyoon, I have to tell you, I wasn't expecting you to gently drag your finger along the crevices of my chest, gliding them up to my collarbone and soon my neck - stopping to grip my chin slightly.

Your touch.. oooh. I still feel the tingles it sent me.

And well, that was your marker as you angled yourself and pressed your lips against mine.

Ah, your lips are forever soft.

I kind of thought more was going to happen, but um, I'm glad it also didn't because we were supposed to shower... and that make out lasted a while, haha.

5:09 P.M. — I wonder if you've noticed me stealing some of your chips... you haven't noticed. I don't think you'll notice either. You're too caught up in the show you're watching, dipping your fingers every now and then to fetch a chip.

There's only so many more I can have before you're out, Jae.

Y'know, I never understood why these big corporations fill the chip bags halfway. Like, come on. Make the price worth it, people!!

5:13 P.M. — Teehee.. guess who got caught stealing a chip... this guy...

You know I love you, right?

Always yours, Chanhee