How To Lose Her In 7 days

Day 5.1

I rolled over in my bed again, and I lost count on how many times I did tonight 'cause I can't sleep. All I did the whole day was clean my room. Niyaya naman ako nila Chantel na mag-hangout sa place ni Mandy pero wala ako sa mood na lumabas. CJ was out of town naman for an overnight shoot, kaya hindi rin ito nagyayang lumabas today.

At dahil hindi pa rin naman ako dinadapuan ng antok, kinuha ko ulit ang phone ko sa bedside table. I opened my Instagram account at unang lumabas na story mula friends ko ay ang post ni CJ. My index finger automatically clicked her icon, and then a video clip played.

"Done, finally! Thank you, guys."

It was CJ's voice from the background, and I think she's also the one filming. The staff were waving at the camera until it focused on Pen.

"Say hi, little sleepyhead," CJ said again and even zoomed in the camera.

"Stop it, CJ." Pen rolled her eyes.

CJ made a cute laugh, and my heart suddenly pounds abnormally. I like hearing her laugh, but there's a negative emotion that I'm trying to brush away because I can't understand why I have to feel it. The video was posted fifteen minutes ago, and it's 3:48 AM now.

Wala sa sarili akong napunta sa inbox and naka-open na rin ang conversation namin ni CJ. Her last message was at 10:00 PM, telling me that she's having her break, but hindi ako nag-reply because I'm trying to sleep.

CJ Alcantara

Hi! We got a short break. Still up?

10:00 PM

Hey! Done na ang shoot?

I don't know what pushed me to message her, kaya para akong tangang nagulat when my message has been sent. Napasubsob pa ako sa pillow after putting my phone beside me 'cause I can't understand what I'm feeling right now.

My phone suddenly beeps, notifying me that I got a message. Nagmamadali ko itong kinuha and saw CJ's reply.

CJ Alcantara

Yes, finally.
But why are you still up?
I thought you were already
asleep.

That's good. I'm trying to
sleep, but I can't. What
are you doing na?

Getting ready for bed. Hbu?

Scrolling through some
apps to make me sleepy.
Who's with you btw?

I suddenly bit my nail after sending my reply. What the heck, Loraine? Why did you ask that question?!

Ide-delete ko na sana ang message ko, but CJ already sent a reply.

CJ Alcantara

Just me, why?

Hmm... okay.

I don't know what to reply 'cause I'm so embarrassed. Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang sarili ko kung anu-ano na rin ang naiisip ko.

Dahil lang naman 'to sa IG story niya. And ugh, alright, I'm thinking about her and Pen, and if they're together. The thought bothers me and I don't know why.

CJ Alcantara

You want proof?

I was about to type no, but suddenly...