Ray
I was left there standing alone. I don't know what to say or if I should follow them. But I look at the back where Mew is sitting with his head down on the table.
I go to him and booked a cab for the both of us.
When we got home I didn't have the energy to change any of our clothes and I just dozed of to sleep.
Its been a week since Sand and I talked he isn't in P'Yo's bar also ever since then. I would always pass the music room but he was nowhere to be found also. I even go to his mother's gogo bar or pass his dorm but I couldn't find him. So I gave up and just focused on Mew and what we have.
"Since our favorite Vocalist still cant perform we will have an open mic night guys!" P'Yo said. "Just come here and tell the band what you want to sing." She then gets down the stage.
"Sing for us Ray." Cheum begged.
"Yes please Ray sing for us." Mew added.
"No please it's embarrassing." I shook my hands.
"Come on Ray, grant your P's request don't you pity my broken heart?" P'Yo joined them in persuading me.
"Oiii~ Ok just one song ok?" I got up in defeat. I walked through the band guitarist and told him the song I would like to sing.
"Uhm.. Hi everyone,my friends just persuade me to do this so I hope you wont judge me." I shakingly said on the mic. Then the band starts to play the intro.
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you
And by now, you should've somehow realised what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And backbeat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before, but you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
People may think that I'm singing this to Mew and I would like to make my self believe that but my heart knows this song is for Sand.
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I closed my eyes and imagine Sand was listening to me smiling. His smile that could radiates to me.
"Ai'Sand!" P'Yo called. I immediately opened my eyes and there he was in his signature band shirt under his denim jacket and acid blue jeans. My smile fades and my heart sank when I saw his hands intertwined with Boeing. Are they back together? Did he take him back? After all that he did to him he just forgive him like that?
I got lost in my thoughts and forgot I was singing. I was only brought back when I saw them looking back at me.
"Uhm.. sorry guys I forgot the lyrics. Excuse me." I left the stage and walked towards the door. I can't stop my tears from falling is this how he felt when he saw me and Mew together? Or this is much worst?
I searched for a cigarette on my pocket and some lighter but I couldn't find any.
"FUCK!" I throw the cigarette in my hands. Sand used to light my cigarettes but now I don't have him beside me. He now belongs to someone else.
"Ray." I looked at the person who called me and saw Mew standing there. "I-" he stopped what was about to say and just hugged me.
I controlled my self from crying I don't want him to see me crying again.
"Let's go inside they're might be looking for us." I wiped the tear stain on my cheeks and rubbed Mew's back.
We headed back to our seat but I made a terrible decision on seating facing the bar counter cause I could see Sand and Boeing chatting with P'Yo and some of Sand's band members while drinking.
"We could leave if you want." Mew said while holding my hands.
"No,it's ok were here to have a good night let's have that." I smiled at him and drank my alcohol.
There were a minute of silence before Cheum and Mew started to joke around along side with April. I would sometimes joined them but my eyes wont leave Sand and Boeing.
"Right Ray?" Mew tapped me.
"Huh?" I snapped back and looked at him.
He looked where I was looking and looked back at me. "Nothing." He smiled.
"Oh,ok." I saw Sand stood up and head straight to the Comfort room so I excused my self and told them I need to go to the comfort room, they just nod and continue to talk.
When I got in luckily there was no other people inside just me and Sand so I locked the door behind me. He looked up and turn off the faucet.
"What are you doing Ray?" He asked.
"Are you back together?" I tried to come close but he stepped back away from me.
"So what if were back together? It's not like it's any of your business." He attempted to walked pass me but I grabbed his arms.
"Sand, you can't simply just forgive him like that?! He cheated and left you alone" I annoyingly said.
"Let go Ray. What ever we had it was over, we don't have any kind of relationship with each other. So stop meddling with my life cause I stopped doing that to you." He looked at me in the eyes. It was empty it wasn't the eyes I know that is full of care and love. All I can see was tiredness.
"I think I understand my feelings now Sand, please just give me time." I begged.
He removed my hands in his arms. "I'm done Ray, I'm already empty I gave everything to you. But this time I'm willing to take the risk with Boeing again just to fill my self back. What ever feelings you have right now I hope it could teach you a very good lesson." He wiped my tears.
"Let's let go from each other Ray." He said and left me.
I want to hug him and tell him to choose me and I will leave Mew just come back to me but he just left me standing here. My knees felt weak and the next thing I knew I was sitting at the restroom floor hugging my knees.
He left me, Sand just left me. And I don't know if I could live with that.
