"No, you're dead." I whispered, i let the gun down.
"Am i? Am I really dead?" She asked sarcastically.
"You got floated"
She was wearing the same clothes she had on when i last saw her. I shook my head and blinked.
"My little wolf, it's all your fault. You killed me, you are the reason your father stopped loving me!" She yelled, she started walking towards me. I shook my head no, i backed away.
"Yes! Yes! You were suppose to be born a boy, but you turned out to be a girl...it's all your damn fault! " she yelled. tears started to form inside my eyes.
"That's not true" I whispered, my mother looked me in the eye and smiled.
"Aw are you crying?" Her thick accent sent shivers down my spine.
" Ha you were always weak, always fragile. " She spat, anger was running through my veins.
"NO! That's not true!" I yelled.
"You are just a product of my imagination." I whispered.
"Oh really?, i wonder why? Do you feel guilty about something? "
"I have nothing to feel guilty about, i did nothing wrong"
"Are you sure about that little wolf?"
"What about the man you killed?"
"It was self defense" I growl.
"Tsk tsk little wolf"
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yell, she smiled and walked towards me once again.
"The day you were born was the day my life became hell! " she screamed. Tears were marking trails down her face. I shook my head.
No
No
It wasn't my fault
"PAYTON?!" I heard my name far away, i looked at my mother who grinned. I turned around and ran as fast as I could. The gun was still in my hands.
"Payton, where are you?!" I heard someone yell i wasn't sure if it was my imagination or real.
My face was being slapped by branches and spines. I didn't stop i kept running not looking back. All I heard were the leave crunching under my feet and my heart beat. Out of no where i felt a body slam into me. I gasped and my body hit the floor with the huge one over me.
"Let me go. Let me go. It was self defense...it was self defense" I cried, i pulled and kicked and trashed around. I felt strong body shield me.
"It wasn't my fault! " i screamed from the top of my lungs.
"Payton payton calm down its me ....it's me" I felt the weight get off me a little.
"Shhh calm down its me" my heart started to calm down with the sound of his voice.
"Bellamy?" I whispered.
"Hey there little warrior" He whispered, i cried. He sat me up slowly and He sighed and pulled me closer.
"Nothing was real...don't worry you're okay" he whispered. I cried into his shoulder.
"Sh, it's okay"
"Shh, nothing was real" he kept whispering into my hair. I sobbed my soul out into his shoulder.
"Are you okay?" He whispered, i nodded. I pulled away and tried to control my breathing. I started to get up, he got up before me and heldped me up. I sigh and wipe my tears away slowly. Bellamy just looks at me he takes a step closer and hugs me tightly. I want to cry even more but stop myself from so.
"If you need someone to talk to...you can talk to me" he whispered, i nodded. I pulled away and smiled up at him. Now that my eyes adjusted to the dark i saw his face was bloody and cut. My hand automatically touched his cheek and turned his face around slowly trying to get a better look.
"What happened?" I whispered, bellamy was just looking at me. I looked at my hand and slowly pulled it away. His eyes showed an unreadable emotion for just a split second. It was gone as fast as it came.
"You're not the only one with a battle inside" he whispered. I nodded and looked around, clark was no where to be seen and i had no idea where we were.
"Wheres clark?"
"Shes back at the bunker...gathering up the supplies "
"What made all those illusions come alive?" I whispered, bellamy looked at me and guided me the right way to go.
"It was the berries and nuts...made us see things that weren't there" he said.
"Thats so crazy"
"Yeah but its all gone now"
I saw the entrance of the bunker up ahead i looked at bellamy and smiled softly. He smiled right back and we made our way to the entrance. I looked around just making sure nothing or more exact no one was around. But then i saw a body laying on the ground, motionless.
"Bellamy?" I whispered, i slowly walked towards the body and kneeled down. I heard a sigh behind me and slow quiet steps.
"He came here to kill me"
"Why?"
"Because i was part of something and someone wanted me to have no more part in it" he whispered. I didnt want to push more into the subject so i just nodded.
"You found her" said clarke behind me i looked up and smiled at her.
"Hello to you too" i whispered and got up, clarke was carrying alot of guns and amo.
"Need help there?" I asked, i didnt wait for an answer i just grabbed one of the piles she made and carried it.
"Thank you" she said, i nodded and looked at bellamy. He was staring at the body, he seemed to not be able to take his eyes away.
"Bellamy?" He turned to me with the same look he was watching the body with.
"Ready?" I asked, he blinked and shooked his head furiously.
"Yeah...im ready " i gave him a sad smile and led the way. A few steps later i turn to look back and clarke was right behind me and bellamy was slowly looking around then again to the body. He sighed and started walking towards us.
"He'll be fine" whispered clarke looking at me, i look at her momentarily and huff.
"I know...you dont have to tell me clarke" i said, i oulled the pile higher and i added a stomp to my walk.
"Okay im so done with you...what is your problem with me?" She said out loud. I stoped and took a breath.
"I dont have a problem with you" i said, i tried to keep myself calm and not explode.
"It sure doesnt seem like it" she said.
Bellamy had caught up to us and now he was looking at both of us confused. I rolled my eyes and laughed.
"Okay maybe i do have a problem with you" i said my voice had venom in it i barely recognized myself.
"You are always trying to boss people around...who the hell made you the boss?...no one exactly...just because your damn father was really good friends with the chancellor doesnt give you a right to play the role.!" I yelled. She looked at me then at bellamy.
"But thats not it is it?" She asked, i gave her my 'what are you talking about' face.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, she shook her head and kept waking.
"Really?!"
"What just happened?" Asked bellamy looking way out of place here. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. I followed clarke and kept my mouth shut for the rest of the walk.
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FanfictionPayton Sanders didn't have any friends on the ark. She was a lone wolf type of girl, she never socialized with anyone. No one knew who she was, no one knew her name. she was an awkward child. She was locked in a cell when she was 14 and now that s...