𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐌𝐞|𝟏𝟖+

𝟏| 𝐁𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧

Andheron se tha mera rishta bada
Tune hi ujaalon se waakif kiya
Ab lauta main hoon in andhero mein phir
To paya hai khudko begaana yahan

I am Ekaksh Raichand, and I have lost everything, including the love of my life.

I lost the girl who I loved the most, who loved me the most. The girl who taught me what love actually meant. The girl who walked, no, who sprinted in my life with the bundle of sunshine and joy she carried with herself and illuminated my dull and dark life.

I lost the light of my life and now, I am thrown into the darkness again, waiting for her to come and rescue me.

Earlier, the darkness didn't bother, not even a bit. I was accustomed to it. But ever since she introduced me to the comfort, light, love and an actual life with her, I cannot help but crave it more. This dullness has started to irk me now and I don't want anything other than to leave it all and to run back in her arms, seeking my comfort.

Only she can pull me out of it all.

She is the one who can heal me again, and yet, she is the only one who is away from me.

I lost her.

This time, forever.

She is no longer with me, and yet, she is the only thing, the only person, I feel around myself. Her scent is the only thing that covers me. Her memories are tied to me like chains and shackles, caging me to themselves with a promise of never letting go.

When her laughter echoes around me, my world pauses, making me close my eyes and take in the moment like a fucking drug.

Even my seclusion begs me to bring her in and fill the void. After her, it feels like no one is there to accept me, to see me as the person I am. She is still present in my eyes and has her hold strong over my heart.

I need her.

Yet, I am not the one she needs.

Maybe we aren't meant to be together in this world. But I promise, I am going to make her mine in the world which is above all this, beyond all this. The world where there is no fear, no second thoughts, no one to stop us. The world where it's only us.