The Blurred Lines

• Regrets and Tears •

"Is it about tomorrow? Did you faint because of that? Love don't ever starve yourself for the sake of those arguments. I can't see you like this-"

"STOP! STOP! CAN YOU FOR ONCE JUST STOP?" Lavanya screamed and her eyes were glistening with unshed tears. She looked as if she was done with me.

"Love?" My hands trembled as she pushed me away.

"Stop taking my name from your filthy mouth. Stop gaslighting me. Stop making me believe that you fucking care when you not." She cried, gritted on her teeth and I was uneasy on seeing her like that. She had never been so vulnerable and disgusted before.

"I do care. What has happened? Can you please tell me?"

"I tell you? You tell me. What was all this?"

"What are you talking about?" I asked and I began to caress her face but she flinched.

"DON'T TOUCH ME. DON'T YOU DARE." She screamed again.

"Lavanya! What has happened? Did that bastard say anything to you?" I asked in a loud tone because I thought that Aditya said something to her.

"Why did you do this Agastya?" Lavanya's tears finally made their way out. "Why did you play me so dirty? So filthy. If you wanted the position, you just had to ask me. If you were so insecure and greedy about it then you would have just asked me to give up."

As she said those words, I found the earth beneath my feet slipping by, I felt tremors in my heart, I saw my worst fears coming true, I could literally see her leaving me. 

"Did Vidyut -"

"Yes!" Her one word answer made my gut clench, bile rose to my throat, I felt choked, and breathless. I felt as if my life was ending, as if i had nothing to hold on to. Nothing was there, to save me. I had planned to tell Vidyut everything about us, my feelings, and my wish to propose Lavanya but whatever happened, wasn't going right. I thought that I would bury all those dirty plans and secrets and leave the hateful thoughts behind. With the help of our newfound love, I would not let her rainbows come in contact with the greys of my life ever but nothing went in my favor. 

"Vidyut has told me everything. He tried his best to keep his friendship with you but still couldn't back bite me. Your plan is out!" She said wiping her tears.

"Lavanya I can explain." I tried but I knew I was failing.

"You betrayed me." She yelled and then chuckled. "It's a fucking betrayal. You played me so well, I must say. I fell for you. I fell in love with you, and you were..." 

"Lavanya, give me a chance.."

"You were so good at it. I mean I almost believed that gradually, slowly you are moving on, you are trying to heal your wounds and then that you like me, you don't hate me anymore, you respect my feelings, I.." her words were harsh, stinging my soul, paining my heart but I couldn't do anything. 

"I didn't play you." I tried to explain. I never wanted it this way. If she would have known all this after my confession, things would have been a lot different but she doesn't know even a bit of my feelings for her.

She still doesn't know that I love her with all my being.

"I believed all of you. What a fool I am! No actually, you were... you are something man! You are a player. Agastya Raichand you are a beast at business." She said with disbelief and horror. She was deeply hurt, broken and angry. Her eyes were wet, her hand rested on her forehead. I was doomed. We were breaking apart.

"Of course they don't fear you, for no reasons. Even at your lowest, you know how to grab and snatch the business from your enemy." She completed.

"Lavanya you are not my enemy. I haven't done anything." I tried to make her look beyond my plan but she was too outraged to see or feel anything.