"You good man?" Troy asked as I sat on his couch trying to come up with words for verse I was trying to write. Usually this stuff came easy to me, but today my mind wasn't in it.
"Yea" I said lying as I sat up in the couch and tapped my pen against the notpad.
"No you're not. Spit it out Trey. I can tell something's wrong" he said and I sighed.
"You remember that girl I was dating when I came here?" I asked and he nodded.
"Well she came out here to surprise me last night and she caught me with Vanessa." Troy sat there staring at me blankly.
"Okay, what's the problem? Didnt you Break up with the girl from Virginia?" he asked and I shook my head. When Troy had seen me with Vanessa he asked about Channel. I told him we broke up because I knew he would give me the fatherly advice I wasn't trying to hear.
"Wait so you were fucking around with Ness while you were still dating your old girl?" he asked and I nodded "and your old girl came out here to visit you and she caught you with Hoenessa?" he asked calling Vanessa by the nickname he had for her. He never liked her and it wasn't hard to tell why. She had a name around Jersey, and honestly, at first she was really just the result of a drunken night that I never planned to tell Channel about but she kept coming back and I let her,
"How could you be so fucking stupid?"
"Look man, I know I fucked up alright? She won't even speak to me"
"She shouldn't." he said plainly and he was right.
"Man, what do I do?" I sghed before looking up at him
"If you love her, do what it takes to get her back." he said and I took in his words. He was right. Channel didn't deserve what I did to her and if I was capable of doing this to her, she definitely didn't deserve me. I would try my best to get her back, but I had a strong feeling it wouldn't work. I knew Channel, and I knew she wouldn't stand for that.
"It's okay Channel" Brittany said rubbing my back as I cried with my head in her lap. "My God, I can't believe he would do that to you." she said causing me to cry harder. I had been home for a few days now and I couldn't stop the crying. I felt horrible, I always told myself to never cry over a guy, but Trey wasn't just any guy, this was my best friend, my first love, my first kiss, my first everything. I had never been in love with anyone before and he hurt me. I heard a vibration coming from the table and I felt Brittany reach over me to pick up a phone.
"Trey's calling" she said
"Just let it go to voicemail." I said and she sighed.
"I'm so sorry Nelly"
"It's not your job to apologize. He should've never don't that to me." I said sitting up I'm the couch. I wiped my face and sighed as there was a knock on the door.
"I'll get it" Brittany said getting up and walking to the couch. She was gone for a few minutes before I heard footsteps coming back to the living room.
"Umm Nelly, Trey's here" she said and I looked up to see Trey walking in behind her with flowers and chocolate and a teddy bear in his hands
"What are you doing here?" I asked getting up from the couch. I quickly wiped my eyes because I didn't want him to see me crying, even though it was evident due to the puffiness in my face.
"I'll give you guys a minute" Brittany said walking down the hall to her room
"I came to apologize. You haven't been taking my calls"
"I haven't answered because I don't want to talk" I said shifting my weight from one leg to the other.
"Channel, come on. I made a mistake." he said and I scoffed.
"No Trey, a mistake is one time. You've been sleeping with her for a month. There's no excuse for that. There's no excuse for any of it." I said feeling the tears forming in my eyes. I tried my best to hold them back, but they seemed to spill over anyway. I put Trey on such a high pedestal, I never expected anything like this from him.
"I thought I meant more to you Trey." I said softly
"You do. It was just hard. The distance-"
"The distance isn't an excuse" I said cutting him off. "If I did this and used distance as an excuse you wouldn't forgive me." I said and he looked at the floor knowing I was right.
"There's nothing I can do to make this up to you" he said after a few moments of silence,
"No." I shook my head
"Okay" he said clearing his throat and I saw that his eyes were glassy. I started to feel bad but I shook the feeling off. He didn't deserve my empathy. "Would you at least accept these? I got them for you" he said and I shook my head
"I don't want them. You can let yourself out."I said walking away from him to my bedroom without looking back. I pushed the door up leaving it cracked so I could hear when he left, and when I heard the door close I fell against the wall and let all my pain out yet again. As I cried, I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and from the scent I knew it was Trey. As much as I didn't want to I just let him hold me.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry" he said through sobs "I'm sorry" he continued to say. I cried for about 3 minutes until I finally calmed down and looked up at him.
"You should go" I said and he nodded.
"Okay" he said softly before leaving my room. He left my room and I watched him leave for real this time.
Excuse my mistakes and Enjoy the chapter guys!