Something More || Yoonmin

9

It's been five days to be exact since Jimin spoke to Yoongi. He's been avoiding him since that day. And Tae was always there to escort him everytime yoongi approaches him.

Physical exhaustion is making his body ache whilst his emotional state isn't letting him rest.

Neither his eyes shuts nor does his brain stops echoing things he isn't willing to accept yet. He stays there lying limp on his bed focused on the ceiling. Why did I drag this to such extent he thinks cursing himself.

A ping from his phone interrupts his thoughts. He tiredly reaches for it seeking a distraction and unlocks it mindlessly.

Yoongi-hyung🦦

I miss you

He stares at the message thinking he might be dreaming. Then he blinks his eyes rubbing it over to see if it is true, if it is real.

Something clogs his throat making it hard to breathe. He knows the feeling when a tear drop rolls out of his eyes. He scolds himself for being this easy.

Is that all? Is it all it took for his heart to race again?

He exhales shakily. It's a lot already and he desperately needs something to hold on. And he knows where he should go now. Without another thought he walks out of his room towards the door he's been missing for the past days.

It is unlocked. He wasn't expecting it to be. But.. whatever.

He gets in the dark room and quietly closes it back. Moves towards the same side of the bed he's so much used to now and gets into the comforter as quietly as possible.

Yoongi is aware and flicks on the night lamp. Ofcourse he saw him entering but didn't spoke a word until Jimin got comfortable.

"Jimin ah." His voice breaks.

"Are you okay?" Yoongi dares to look at him while asking.

"Why do you care. It's not like you like me. " Jimin says lying straight looking at the ceiling.

Yoongi rushes to refuse "Ofcourse I do. What are you saying." He says worried sick.

"No. Not how you used to before." Tears brimming in Jimin eyes to remember how yoongi used to be. He made him feel loved before not anymore.

"It's not like you still feel the same. You shouldn't be bothered anymore." Jimin sounds so distant.

He's giving up. He's there. He's getting there. He believes he's getting there.

Yoongi looks at him dumbstruck for a moment.

Jimin can feel it "I knew it. Back then." He says

"Jimin ah i-"

"No. If you aren't accepting it even now. I am refusing to hear anything else you have to say." Jimin says sternly.

That's it. He needs a closure today. So he can move on. Just like yoongi. He can't keep holding onto something knowing well how it's going to end. No.

Yoongi seems to contemplate for a moment and turns to lie straight on his back.

"I did." He says gulping.

"My feelings for you weren't the same like I had for other members." He confesses with his eyes closed.

At this Jimin takes the breath he's been holding on. He wonders if he should be happy to hear something he's been longing for years or he should accept that it isn't same now.

"The first time I saw you. You were nothing but a cute little boy with full of determination in my eyes. But later... As we started living as a family. I adored you so much. Whenever someone feels down you were there motivating with your reassuring words despite you being insecured all the time. Everytime someone cries you were there wiping there tears. You kept us embracing in your Little arms to comfort." Yoongi chuckles slightly looking at his fingers.