Since day one • Sequel of M.T.F •

Chapter 6 - Goodbye

[This chapter contains foul language, you are warned.]

Alyssa's POV

He looks so different. He's taller. He's more muscular than before. His eyes aren't the same shade of blue I adore. His eyes... full of sadness. Change..

"Woah." He says. I look up at him, making eye contact. "I had the same reaction." I state. "um well.. I'm sorry for Nash's behaviour." "it's alright.. I'm gonna walk to the hotel." I exclaim. "you can't, you'll get mobbed by fans." He explains. I shrug. "All I know is, I'm not getting back in that limo." I remark. "Can I walk with you?" He asks. "of course you can Benjamin. You shouldn't have to ask." I smirk. He laughs. "I remember that day, you said you'll call me Benjamin because you know it bothers me. Because it's imperfectly perfect." He quotes. I let out a small smile and begin to walk.

"I did what you said to me.." He mumbles. "What?" "I.. I moved on." He said. That's when everything around me froze. Of course I already knew he did, it's just I didn't want to hear those words leave his mouth.I feel my heart tear open and take everything that was left of it. What were we before? I know we didn't date. But we had this awkward relationship. We had a few I love you's in the end but, that was it.

"I-I'm proud of you." I mumble but loud enough for him to hear. "you are?" "Yes I am. You did what I asked and it saved you from getting your heart torn open." I state. "that's not true.." I hear him mumble but decide to ignore it. "so how's Miranda?" I ask. "good." He simply answers. "good.." I mumble trying not to burst open.

Tell him what you know be a good friend.

Shut it sally.

You didn't miss me?

Well kinda. I need someone annoying and obnoxious in my life. Wait.. I already have two of them.

Miranda and Christina.

Yep.

Tell him. That's what friends are for. If you don't tell him and someone else tells him before you and you already knew, He'll be pissed at you.

Ugh I know just go away.

Wait..

Bye Sally.

Should I tell him? Ugh this is so frustrating. "What's up, you seem frustrated." He questions. "can everybody read my mind or something?!? I ask. He laughs "seriously what's up?"

Nows your chance..

"Miranda cheated on you!" I blurt, covering my mouth with my hand. "No she didn't, your just jealous." He says. wait, what?!?

"Me, jealous of Miranda you've got to be kidding me!" I yell. "no your jealous that's she's mine and your not." He yells back.

"What the actual fuck hayes. Your so fucking full of yourself. You think everyone wants you and wants to get in your fucking tight ass pants but no. Okay. I'm telling you the truth. She cheated on you with Tyler, Megan's Boyfriend. I have a picture to prove myself correct, so if you have nothing nice to say, write it down on a piece of paper, fold it up nicely and shove it up your mother fucking ass, asshole!" I yell.

Holy fuck, where did that come from..

Hayes stands there blinking a few times. "Do you want me to go to the fucking dollar store to get some damn piece of paper for your bullshit." I ask.

Okay, now I think I'm going a little to far but I'm pissed off. When did he stop trusting me?!?

"I thought we were friends?" He frowns.

"I thought you believe me?!? But no..." I remark.

"What happened to you? You aren't the same girl I fell in love with a year ago.."

"What are you talking about?!? What happened to you! Mr.nice guy is now Mr.Fuck boy. You think everyone praises you and it's annoying okay! I'm sorry for yelling and using foul language to you but you got to stop acting like your fucking Elizabeth the 3rd!" I'm so pissed off, I don't even know why. Wait..

"Fell in love with?" I question. he nods. "I fell in love with you too. You have no right to use that against me." I'm fuming. Why though? It's Hayes I'm talking too. Sweet Hayes..

"You know what, Screw you Alyssa! I don't need you bitching at me when I did nothing wrong." he growls walking away.

"You wanna know what you did wrong?!?" I yell at him.

"What! What on earth did I do to you, to make you have this hatred against me." He spits.

"I don't hate you Hayes! I never could, your taking this all the wrong way. Yes I did yell at you and make it seem that I hate you but I don't. I'm mad at you because.."

"Because what?!?"

"It's a stupid reason.. never mind." I frown.

"Tell me, Alyssa." He demands.

"You didn't believe me! You didn't trust me! You went all up on my ass saying I was jealous when I really am not. Im happy to see you happy Hayes! How could you not know this! I told you the day I left. I told you everything the day I left. I thought you missed me. But this whole time you thought I was jealous. I don't give a crap if I'm not happy! Cause you make me happy when your happy. I know that doesn't make sense but Hayes you built up this anger in me I never experienced before and it's killing me." I finish with tears coming down my face.

"Can I see the picture?" He asks. out of everything I just said this is what he wants? To see the damn picture?!?

"No. Your going to have to believe me without any proof. That's what best friends are for. You don't need proof because they are the proof. But right now Hayes you wanna know what I'm feeling like.." I exclaim.

"What are you feeling like Alyssa." he frowns.

"Getting a new best friend." I say. As those words leave my mouth I fully regret it.

"Hayes I'm-"

"No, don't. I- I don't want to see you anymore... I don't want to be your friend anymore. I know the old Alyssa would never say those words to me.. I know the old Alyssa would never give up on us." Through the dark I see tears running down his face.

"Hayes don't do this, I'm still here! I'm the same Alyssa you fell in love with a year ago. I still have the scars on my skin that will never vanish. I still have that giddy personality in me. Just this huge ball of anger came upon me and made me furious with you. I'm sorry what I've said. i would never want to loose you as a friend you know that, don't you? You know I would never want you to leave me right? Please tell me you know that!" I'm full on sobbing by now. I can't have him leave me. He's my best friend.

"I'm sorry Alyssa, but no.." He forces the words out of his mouth.

"There's to much on my mind to even respond to you right now." He replies truthfully. "But for now.."

I look up at him pleading with my eyes.

"For now it's goodbye."

I never realized just one word can take your world and tear it apart.

A/N
I DID NOT PLAN THIS TO HAPPEN 😂 I'm so sad rn. It's all my fault 🙈 sorry for all the swear words.

How do you feel about Hayes thinking she's jealous?

Do you think Hayes will believe his ex-best friend or trust his girlfriend?

Read on to find out

Xoxo -Alyssa