Unveiling Myself

Part 4

It's been quite some time since I wrote in there. I'll admit that I do not even remember who was the one i was writing about and feeling so desperate to hold close to me again. Now it's 2024 and I have new characters in my life. One of them I fell so desperately in love with...

Love, a feeling that i have struggle for so long to understand. Always confused the simple of attraction for someone for love and as attracted and attached i was with someone, it was oh so easy to let them go when the time had come.

But him...oh him, i could give everything to have him close to me all the time. Every inch of me being longs for him, his touches, his kisses, literally everything.

This is a complicated situation, so much sacrifices i have to do to keep him close to me and I found myself agreeing to every single one of them because I can't let go....my heart screams for him and even if my mind tries to reason with me at time the amount of love my heart bears for him is way stronger than any doubts I could have. 

Every step i take away from, i take ten more towards him.

Is he the one?

Am i making the right choices?

Am i forgetting myself letting myself fall so deep into this love?

Does he even love me as much as I do?

All those thoughts, all those questions keep on floating around in my mind and as hard as I try to shut them down, they always come back. They hit me like a god damn truck.