random thoughts from a over thinker

random thoughts 1

Im just honestly tired of losing people cuz I didn't acknowledge who an wat I was an wanted llf but then again how could I if I didn't even know wat that was exactly an how could I possibly enjoy it when u watch the world shame people for all these things it could possibly be so then u run away saying ur just finding urself but really just end up hiding ya self almost so well u don't realize w

Then it's to late and that person breaks out an frees itself To late u got a wild side on the loose u can't reign it in but u placate it hoping one day it'll go away an then ur forced to accept that its u in the mirror that's u an honestly it's ok cuz u worked to get here this far an the strength u Cary like a shield an the rest will be ur sword anyone tried to come at u now u know who u meant to be but as time goes on that's not necessarily it either the truth is u were lost an needed anyone just someone to see u an u create a new person who can be seen but at the moment u don't realize cuz when u wake up ur still in the dark but finally u see someone calling you an u go back to reality not realizing this was the first time u left the real version of urself to protect them from the cruelties uve seen Llf mmm I would keep going but then again u might see to much llf the story of the child that slumbers in it's innocence blissfully while others fight off reality hoping it's doesn't interrupt the dreams that will one day be the reality they fight to make true but until then they hope he doesn't wake up in this lost world they keep going making sure that when life happens to finally come shaking that child out his daily dreams he will look an see all his dreams are not just possible there real an it's his world they fight for so that piece of innocence is preserved in a place where innocence wasn't afforded but in this place they created maybe just maybe this will be a beautiful new start where innocence is accepted an not taken advantage of. Llf honestly I feel like this is anyone story that's ran from themselves cuz it couldn't be afforded to keep that version of u cuz the world is cruel so you kill ur best self so u could wake up an take back everything the world took an denied u only realizing that u were never alone Fighting with u was reality propelling u forward an when things seemed endless light step in bringing everything into perspective an when all was said an done the future greeted u wit open arms letting you know their waiting an yes it hurts to let that past go but u know u can only make it to the future by remembering the past but u can no longer live with it so u carry it knowing that all the life skills it taught u was a gift an now u will finally be able to accept the present he gave u so long ago giving you a chance not to just live but be who u were always meant to be by preserving that small innocent life u realize what he gave u wasn't life but a chance to do it better an correct an he took that child nurtured an gave them skills to face an beat this world yea it took a lot of cuts an bruises but in the end it empowered u to actually understand it an feel it finally it was ready to bloom an u are ready to handle it an grow into it as u realize this u reach out grasping it with both hands not daring to look cuz it might disappear then u look an it's there finally it's the beginning of the new u an then as if in a whisper u accept it allowing it to feel u up with new meaning an worth an finally u have it that little spark that ignited the world an as u close ur eyes an smile u know it's true finally u can feel hope an finally u know it's ok to trust in the faith u have been given it's ok to believe in a better tomorrow cuz finally u accepted ur past an allowed it to no longer hinder u but now it's apart of ur strength an ur sword it's sharper than ever renewed no longer anger or any of those things clouding it u realize ur sword is the perfect tool to be able to make ur enemies into friends all u had to do was use correctly that sword we used to make everyone else hurt like us instead of we would have used it to cut away that hurt in our enemies instead of antagonizing it that maybe we can get through the the real problems an come to a solution but is easier to lash out in anger than be seen wit compassion ur sword heavy with the decision of speaking into existence peace or war an as u open ur mouth everything life has taught an will teach u flashes in front of u an u finally see the bigger picture out of all the fragments u thought meant nothing u sit back a watch the big picture realizing ur here to be u an no one else because no one can accomplish wat u can an no one can do wat ur meant to when a soldier gives up a fight that's one less amazing unique thing well miss out on an as u stand there sword an shield do u lay down ur weapons an finally take a better route or do u continue fighting tooth an nail to make ur dreams a reality u look an back at u stares soldiers warriors Spartans an then u see it that simple innocence that u had one day been sleeping was inside them as well an hopefully maybe just maybe u should preserve it an u feel it ur soul shifts an u now know u do better than create ur reality ull create a place that anyone dreams can be loved an as u look up u see the strangest thing as u look closer u realize it's u an their different somehow an as soft as the wind blows the spirit inside u fighting so long slumbers content that finally the fights over an only time u here from that warrior is rare when it have to come be there for the people that are there for them now that warrior is there shield there sword an even their teacher showing them this world that finally was brought into reality by a single simple action of preserving innocence woke up the world