He believed me.

I don't know whether to be happy or crushed by that.

"I'm going to come by later though," Parker added. "Because I'd really rather that we talked about this today."

I nodded, just really wanting him to leave.

Parker casted me one last look over his shoulder before leaving, closing my dorm room door behind him.

I locked the door before slumping down to the ground with my head in my hands, choking back a sob.

What had I done?

~*~

I needed someone I could talk to.

Someone that wasn't Parker.

Because if I tell Parker what happened, he's never going to trust me again.

He'll be disappointed in me.

So I pressed my phone to my ear.

"Hello?" McKenna's voice asked.

She sounded so perky.

Could I really ruin her day for her?

I sat in silence for a few moments, contemplating what I should do. What I should even say.

"Is everything alright?" she asked, her voice dropping a little.

"I just..." I started.

But I couldn't even complete the sentence.

"What's the matter?" she asked, her voice sounding a little panicked now.

"Can you just come to my dorm?" I managed to ask.

"Okay," she agreed. "Just wait for me there."

Trust me, I'm not going anywhere else.

I hung up, placing my phone on my futon next to me.

I don't even know what I'm supposed to say to McKenna.

Sorry you're dating such a fuck up.

Sorry I don't know how to deal with my emotions other than with the use of a razor.

The knock came on my door a few minutes later.

I didn't really want to get up to open it, but I had ever so conveniently locked it after Parker left, so I didn't have much of a choice.

I opened the door for her, and she doesn't ask about why I've been crying or why I called her over, but instead just come inside.

We're both quiet for a few minutes as I shut my door behind her and re-lock it before taking a seat on the futon next to her, the two of sitting side-by-side in silence.

"What's the matter?" McKenna finally asked, her worried eyes searching my face.

I can't bring myself to say it.

To say anything really.

"Everything," I managed to say.

"Let's start a little less broad," she suggested.

And then we're both silent again, as I struggled with what to say next.

"I fucked up real bad," I said, looking over at her.

She nodded, her gaze never changing.

I pressed my eyes shut, trying to hold back the tears threatening to escape.

"Is it Parker?" she finally asked, after a few minutes of silence.

I wish.

I could fix things with Parker.

Jefferson Lake (MBBF Spin-Off)Read this story for FREE!