He believed me.
I don't know whether to be happy or crushed by that.
"I'm going to come by later though," Parker added. "Because I'd really rather that we talked about this today."
I nodded, just really wanting him to leave.
Parker casted me one last look over his shoulder before leaving, closing my dorm room door behind him.
I locked the door before slumping down to the ground with my head in my hands, choking back a sob.
What had I done?
I needed someone I could talk to.
Someone that wasn't Parker.
Because if I tell Parker what happened, he's never going to trust me again.
He'll be disappointed in me.
So I pressed my phone to my ear.
"Hello?" McKenna's voice asked.
She sounded so perky.
Could I really ruin her day for her?
I sat in silence for a few moments, contemplating what I should do. What I should even say.
"Is everything alright?" she asked, her voice dropping a little.
"I just..." I started.
But I couldn't even complete the sentence.
"What's the matter?" she asked, her voice sounding a little panicked now.
"Can you just come to my dorm?" I managed to ask.
"Okay," she agreed. "Just wait for me there."
Trust me, I'm not going anywhere else.
I hung up, placing my phone on my futon next to me.
I don't even know what I'm supposed to say to McKenna.
Sorry you're dating such a fuck up.
Sorry I don't know how to deal with my emotions other than with the use of a razor.
The knock came on my door a few minutes later.
I didn't really want to get up to open it, but I had ever so conveniently locked it after Parker left, so I didn't have much of a choice.
I opened the door for her, and she doesn't ask about why I've been crying or why I called her over, but instead just come inside.
We're both quiet for a few minutes as I shut my door behind her and re-lock it before taking a seat on the futon next to her, the two of sitting side-by-side in silence.
"What's the matter?" McKenna finally asked, her worried eyes searching my face.
I can't bring myself to say it.
To say anything really.
"Everything," I managed to say.
"Let's start a little less broad," she suggested.
And then we're both silent again, as I struggled with what to say next.
"I fucked up real bad," I said, looking over at her.
She nodded, her gaze never changing.
I pressed my eyes shut, trying to hold back the tears threatening to escape.
"Is it Parker?" she finally asked, after a few minutes of silence.
I could fix things with Parker.
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Jefferson Lake (MBBF Spin-Off)Teen Fiction
*Spin-off of My Brother's Best Friend *Trigger Warning: This book deals with issues such as self-harm, Anorexia, and depression. Lee Adams is what people tend to call "high-maintenance". He feels as though he has absolutely no control over his emoti...