I had wanted to die.
I had wanted to simply throw myself off
the building and let gravity do its job,
the knot into a tie.I had wanted to dream.
I visualise the scenic flower garden, the
chaotic classroom, the terrifying zombies,
the apocalypse.
Sometimes I sleep, sometimes I don't to
the point I just collapse.I had wanted to sing.
Speak the words within that no one else
can understand, to fulfil them into a melody.
Maybe I was too shy, too insecure of the voice
that I became a nobody.I had wanted to take a dive.
Into the vast oceans, swimming pools,
sparkling blue lakes.
There is the fear of water, none of Poseidon's
gift was I given, no matter how much courage
it takes.I had wanted to dance.
Still am, but with consequences.
My mind is blurring the steps, my body is
turning numb, forgetting all sequences.I had wanted what I wanted.
But nothing is straight, everything slanted.
Probably I took the chances for granted.
Thinking that for survival, I just needed to try my best, look forward to the future, one day reach my potential, none failure parted.I had wanted to die.
I want to die.
YOU ARE READING
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Non-Fictionnever will I ever find a world that's better...oh wait, sarcasm is written in this letter. Written anywhere: in panic or anxiety, the reason's there.