LOSING GAME | SandRay

the final frame

When Ray woke up, he immediately felt his head hurting. The feeling was not unusual for him, but this time, his headache was paired with another type of pain. A pain in his heart. He didn't know where to put that feeling. However, as memories started coming back from last night, he remembered, how much he humiliated Sand. At first, he jumped on him then said horrible things and on top of that, he nearly got him arrested.

"How are you feeling?" Mew's voice woke him from his thoughts.

"Like shit." he weakly smiled at the boy in front of him.

"I don't doubt that." Mew shook his head.

"Top told me what happened last night."

Ray's smile immediately turned into a grimace when he heard Top's name.

"Did you spend the night with him?" he asked.

"Yeah... He helped me when I was feeling sick. He also cleaned the pool by the time I woke up." Mew sounded uneasy.

"Are you getting back with him?" Ray asked, a knowing smile on his face.

Mew sighed, then answered.

"I don't know... You are here for me now, but if I want to be honest, I still have feelings for him."

"It's okay, you don't have to worry about me." Ray held Mew's hands and gently smiled at him.

"In fact, you're not the only one who has feelings for someone else."

"Sand?" Mew asked.

"Yeah..." murmured Ray. "But I don't think I will ever have a chance with him. I hurt him very much last night."

"You will never know if you don't talk to him." Mew patted Ray's shoulder.

"You might be right..." Ray sighed. "Do you think I should see him now?"

"Yes, you should, but please, take a shower before going to him." Mew laughed.

Ray just slapped Mew's arm playfully, then went to take a shower.

After freshening up, he decided to look at his phone. He wanted to message Sand and warn him that he's coming over. When he turned on his phone, there were tons of unread messages and missed calls. Some of them from Nick and some of them from Sand's mom. With fear in his heart, he opened the messages.

From Sand: I hope you see my message when you've sobered up from last night. I want you to know that you were right, I really cannot walk away from you, at least not physically. Please, let Mew take care of you now.

"What the hell does this mean?" Ray asked from himself.

He hurriedly tapped on the messages Nick sent to him.

From Nick: RAY! It's urgent!!!

Come to the hospital!

Sand swallowed a bottle of pills.

It's all your fault, you ass.

Fuck it, I'm sure you are sleeping your drunk ass out.

Just so you know, I fucking hate your guts and I'll punch the hell out of you when I see you again.

Ray felt his heart beating faster. Sand wanted to kill himself because of Ray. Sand wanted to kill himself. Sand wanted to... Sand, his Sand.

As if he was chasing something, he ran down the stairs, intending to get to his car. On his way, he was stopped by Top, who was holding a cup of coffee in his hands.