Thats Life

Chapter Nineteen

"You have all known this for a while... Not the gay thing, well, that too. But this, eventually I was going to relive the pee I've been holding in for six years being a drug addict isn't fun and it isn't a life id ask for, or wish upon anyone. The way I saw it, I have always had two options but as life went on I found that both options lead to the same destination so why take the long way?"

Our morning was mostly silence, and Supernatural. We didn't talk much at all after the energy in the room changed. I didn't mean to take the comment so personally but come on, how could I not have? About two hours into the show Tyson came in, sat down, and watched with us, Will followed shortly behind him. No one asked why we were all awake and watching supernatural so early in the morning. I don't remember one time when we all woke up early and just hung out. Honestly, for such a dysfunctional family, it's weird how close we all are.

All four of us sat there watching Supernatural together for what felt like hours. Tyson would tease Suzie occasionally, for drooling over Dean, and Will... well Will was just being himself, so you know how that goes... It's the worse experience you could imagine.

"Dude, okay so Sam walks into your bedroom and he's naked what do you do?" Will asks looking at me.

This is not what I meant when I mentioned that no one had commented on the whole 'gay' thing that happened with my dad I was just curious to hear what everyone thought, or if anyone hated me for it. Not an interrogation about what I would do if a naked man was in my room. But I mean I guess it's something, not sure why everyone is so obsessed with me thinking that Sam is an attractive man though.

I scrunched my face "Why is he naked?"

"I don't know! Needs, or desires, or maybe his clothes got burnt off who knows, anyway, do you top him or are you more of a bottom?"

Oh my god, this again?! Why he is so interested in this, I'll never know, but I just roll my eyes in response.

This family could feel complete, I'm sure it could. But I don't feel like I belong, I know I don't. I'm the "trial" or whatever, the person in your life you feel like you have to love but if it was some random person or a friend you would turn your back on them. I looked over at Suzie who was already looking back at me. I shot her an apologetic look.

"Come on Jace, I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours!"

"Dude?" Tyson shook his head in confusion at him.

Nodding in agreement with Tyson, I add, "Yeah, I'm not sure I want to know your answer."

"Fine, I'll go first then. Id bottom for Sam, no questions asked."

I huff and look at the wall wishing it would suck me in and away from this conversation. "Will, you wouldn't know what to do if some naked man walked into your room. You would probably run away screaming."

"Aha! And what would you do?!"

"I don't know! I'd probably question why there's a stranger in my bedroom with his wang out." I throw my arms up.

Tyson nods. "Yeah, kind of gay to walk into a sleeping dudes' room naked." He jokes. He thinks for a few seconds then looks back over at Will. "Is he hard, or soft?"

"Oh my god come on." I burry my head into my hands.

With no hesitation Will answers "hard"

"Alllriighht, well that's enough for me." I stood up from the couch but before I could go anywhere, I got eye daggers from Suzie, probably begging me not to leave her with them. After shaking the cigarette pack towards her I continued towards the front door.