𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐞 - 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐨 𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐞

w i t h o u t y o u

but i did.

'whos that?' i ask madeleine, making her lightly jolt.

'when did you get here?' she asked me.

'a while ago.' i shrugged, never breaking eye contact with.. her.

she smiled at me, but i was about to break the nose ofd her little innocent pathetic face.

'uhm, mattheo.. this is brooke. and brooke, this is mattheo.' maddy smile, introducing us.

'nice to meet you.' she smiles, holding out her hand to me.

i stared at her, im not touchinf her fuckinf hand.

'nice to meet you' bullshit!!

i sucked in my cheek, feeling anger rushing inside me, it took everything in me to ignore it.

'you too.' i mumble, crossing my arms. 'how did you get hers?' i asked, raising my eyebrows.

'oh maddys friend gave me the address.'

'oh really?' i scoff, staring at her as she smiled at me.

maddy turned her head behind her to face me, tilting her head slightly confused.

'yes, really.' she smiles, looking back at me. 'can we go to your room? i feel like you have the best room out of every person in hogwarts.' she told maddy, with the samy shitty voice.

'actually she-'

'yes! lets go!' maddy said, quickly interrupting me and walking upstairs to her room with brooke following her.

i quickly turn my body, watching them leave as brooke stops for a split second up at the stairs, turning down to look at me.

be careful. she mouths to me, with a smirk.

i glares at her as she winked at me with a small snicker, before following madeleine once again inside her room.

i clench my fist, watching as the door shut.

-

Madeleine Black

i have no idea whats going on right now.

why did he suddenly get so mad when i cut my hair? whats the problem with that?

he doesn't own me.

-

so i also decided to meet up with my brother one last time before break is over..

and maybe convince him to come home.

i know our parents miss him, and i know they would want him home if they knew he was alive.

and its killing me inside keeping it from them.

suddenly, ethan walked in the cafe and looked around before finding me and sitting down.

'hey.' he smiled.

'hey, long time no see.' i chuckle.

'so what did you wanna talk about?' he asked.

'oh, right! i just- wanted to talk to you and catch up real quick.. its been a while.'

'yeah i would be happy to do that.' he smiled.

while we were talking the waiter walked over and looked at the both of us.

'anything to drink!' she asked, holding her pen and notepad.

'ill have a water.' i smile at her.

'ill have.. a diet coke.' ethan said, looking up at her.

'you got it.' she said, writing our drinks down and walking away.

'so.. i have something i've been wanting to ask..'

'whats up?'

'mom and dad have been really missing you.. maybe you can come back.' i whisper, playing with my nail.

ethan got so silent all of the sudden, he had nothing to say.. and i understood it..

'im not going back home.'

'what? why?'

'what would you do if your son who went missing 6 years ago suddenly came home? you would never look or treat him the same.'

'they miss you so much etha-'

'im not going back, mads. im sorry.' he sighs, staring at his lap.

'ethan please. i cant keep going on like you're dead. they're miserable.' i said, my voice scratching. it felt like my heart was in my throat.. i could barely breathe.

'madeleine, i love you. so much. and i love mom and dad, and forever will. but im not going back there. all they're gonna do is treat me like im some fragile glass waiting to shatter.'

'ethan you were missing for 6 years, please i cant go on with this!' i cry out.

'you gotta go on without me, im not going back.. no one can look at me the same, you cant look at me the same!!' he snapped.

'ethan..'

'no, dont. mads, i love you. but im not going back there. ever.'

and then it went silent. i felt everything around me go dark and it felt like i was about to cry. my throat got dry and my eyes started to water.

'you know where to find me.' he said, before getting up and walking out.

i watched him open the door and walk out with it slamming behind it.

i felt hot tears roll down my cheeks as i immediately break down in a stupid fucking cafe.

i lay my fingers up to my eyes to catch my tears from ruining my makeup, but i think i was too late on that.

the waitress then came over and put down my water next to me.

'are you okay?' she asked.

i inhaled a deep breath and stared at my water. 'i will be.'

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words: 1505

ive got so much motivation to write over winter break so i have so many chapters ready for you guys! hope u enjoy them!