Heartstrings and Sixx-Strings

Part 9 - Who We Are

Majority of people might say that falling in love with a rockstar is one of the worst decisions you can make on the planet. They sleep around, could potentially give you an STD, they are never around and are always busy, and so on. It doesn't sound like much of a love affair, does it? One thing you must know about me is that I like to challenge reality. If I manifest something hard enough, the universe shall deliver. And in all honesty, it doesn't always work out.

Nikki and I went on together for about a year and a half, and I can happily say that it was worth it. I wouldn't change our experiences for the world. We went to Germany together and had an amazing time, from fancy restaurants to being shitfaced at fancy clubs together, you could say that it was meant to be. We were truly the definition of young, wild love.

As time went on, we got more distant, due to the tour and me being stuck in LA for work. The love was still there, but things seemed to deem more challenging. As much as I hoped he was loyal, I couldn't be perfectly sure. I mean, these are the Motley Crue boys we are talking about here. Quite honestly, I didn't want an answer to that question.

Towards the end of the year, my mother had become very ill. I flew out to Illinois to stay with her in the trying times, but things weren't getting better. With my dad being out of my life and no other family, I had to take care of her in the last days. During this period, I received an amazing job opportunity with a local publishing company. With the hospital bills stacking and my mother knocking on death's door, I made the absolutely hard decision to quit my job with the record label and move back home. These were the challenges I did not like.

August 22nd, 1986

I called Nikki, who had his final show tonight for the Theater of Pain Tour, relaying the situation at hand. Nikki offered to help, but using others for their money was something I didn't believe in. Plus, I knew there was not much else I could do to save mom anyway. This must have been her time, I guess. It was an extremely devastating call to make, but I felt it would be best for Kassidy and Nikki to come to a pause. Note that I didn't say end. I did not believe in endings, because I knew our love for each other would be everlasting. Maybe someday, the universe will bring us back together. Nikki understood, but wanted to meet up in Peoria, Illinois in two weeks. I agreed.