From Twelvy To Twenty

I'm Back

Hey guys

So guess what? I'm back and here to stay for hopefully a long time to come :)

It feels good to be able to write again and I've been putting it off for months now because I've been scared. Truthfully it scares me that there is so much about me that other people don't know and it scares me that my best friends have no idea that I am even writing this diary. I will show it to them one day but I'm not sure when that will be.

I've done a lot since I last posted and I thought I would just tell you guys about the highlights that come to me as I am writing this.

So I entered a Battle of the Bands competition with my band Screaming at the Stars and the original song that I wrote and we performed came second for best original song! (I won a guitar :D) It was the first time that I had ever performed an original song and it was the first venue that our band ever played at. I think we did great considering that we had been around for 3 months.

I also got the lead in our school production of Stories in the Dark. I played Anna and according to my teacher I made the principal cry which is almost impossible to do.

I started writing a book that I am entering into a contest next year and planning out a film that I want to enter into a film contest later this year/next year. I also started writing a play script that I might show to my drama teacher and see if we can perform it.

I started doing Jazz Ballet lessons with the local dance school but a few weeks ago I slipped while dancing and did something to my knee (hyper-extended it or something) and now I can't dance in the class until it heals which will be probably the end of the year.

I enrolled in a music class at my school and did well on it. I had to compose stuff and perform other stuff and it really opened my eyes to new musical styles.

I started learning Serbian because I have ancestors and possible relatives there and someday I would like to visit them.

I have become obsessed with a bunch of TV shows which I will now list.

Sherlock, Supernatural (only up to season 5 so DO NOT spoil), The Flash, Arrow (only up to season 1, again no spoilers please), Daredevil, Sense 8, Teen Wolf (can't wait for season 5!!!), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D, Merlin (only watched three episodes so no-oh you get the gist ) and of course I've always loved Dr Who.

I started an environmental youth group called COCAA (community of conservation and activism) and we currently have about 7 members and 3 projects under-way.

I am performing in a chorus group with Opera Australia later on in the year and we get a free fez (whovians where are you?)!

I am also performing in a hip hop dance crew at our town fireworks to commemorate (State) day. (I can't say my state because it would narrow it down too much).

Lastly I am taking part in a four day acting workshop with NIDA and we get to work with actual professional actors who will mentor us for those few days. I can't wait

My life has been taken over by TV shows and school work and music and drama and dance and film/s and writing. It is a wonder that I am still standing and still functioning and that my grades managed to stay at a very satisfactory level. I haven't gotten my report yet but from what I can see I am on straight A's!! I'm very proud of myself.

I think I might be starting a Youtube channel soon and if I do then I will definitely write a page of this book with the link in it. It can be my full coming out for you to view if you wish. I think I am confident enough with myself now that I am not afraid of being seen by you, the people who I value incredibly deeply.

You guys are amazing you know. It was all of you who are still reading this book who stopped me from hurting myself. Gave me the courage to come out to so many of my friends. Gave me friendship and trusted me with your secrets and asked me for advice. It was your support that actually made me write this chapter and re-start my writing. Without you I may not even be here right now so you should all feel very special.

I want to start doing a little section in every few chapters that shares a story of one of my readers. That's if you guys want this. It would be anonymous but I think it would be a next step in helping some of you with the difficulty of coming out or anything else that you might need to talk about. I cannot give you all of the advice you need and I cannot give you completely correct advice but if we band together as a community we might be able to help each other. Just a thought, comment your opinion.

You are all amazing, incredible people and I love you all so much

Thank you for your support and for actually reading this book.

I never thought anyone actually would.

Love you all

Destined4G