ONE HEART 4 STRINGS || Joshua ||SVT ff ||18+

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"Oh"

"So I guess you're the one who should quit talking nonsense. It's normal for him to do that because he cares about Joshua, doesn't want him making a mistake you know"

"Ok. Sorry." I apologize and carry on with my meal.

"These have almost no taste but they always make me want to throw up " I lift my eyes to her and she's taking some pills.

"What are those? Are you sick or just too fatigued?"

"Emergency pills" that's all she says and my head spins

"Emergency what? Why are you taking those?" I probably sound so stupid right now.

"Because I need to take these to be accepted into the Covent dear Celine, ofcourse I'm taking these because I had wild sex last night" how the hell does she say these things so nonchalantly?

"Say what?"

"I got fucked" she sits in front of me licking her lips. I'm glad I'm done eating because my thoughts are not the sanest at the moment.

"With __?"

"Jesus Christ Lyn! Are you seriously going to ask me who I had sex with? Who else will I have sex?"

" Minhyuk. Ofcourse. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry" I cover my mouth as I apologize

"Your Virgin brain amuses me like sometimes"

"Don't say that. I'm not so innocent" I mentally slap myself after saying that.

"I caught that. We have a bit of time. Get spilling. How are you not so innocent? The first kiss from bastard with him literally feeding you his saliva? Or the useless pecks on the lips all through your years with him suddenly made you 'not' so innocent'? . . . . You don't know a lot of stuff Celine, and God! I want you to experience that too." She pauses and looks at me "__ if you had told me you had sex with BangChan that night. I'd only have been upset because you didn't know him too well but I'd be happy you had some fun for once in your life"

A moment of silence passes and we're just staring at each other while she's smiling. I'm trying to process what she just said.

"Have you ever desired a man Celine?" She's been calling me by my full name and I know this is some serious talk.

Why do I suddenly feel warm as she asks this? Oh right! My mind drifted to last night

"Have You?" She repeats

"Yes. I think I have" my voice is so faint. This isn't exactly how I intended to tell her about yesterday

"Your cheeks are telling alot. Did something happen? Last time we spoke you said you'd never felt that way except during those unholy movies. But a man has never made you want him and that's why it was difficult for you to go all the way through with Michael" she reaches out and holds my hand. She does this almost all the time when we're at the table.

"Me . . . and Joshua __"

"You finally slept with him after all the heated gazes?" She shrieks clapping rather annoyingly

Somi has no filter! Or maybe it's the after sex behavior

"Finally? When did I say I wanted to sleep with him?" I smack her hand..

"Oh! You don't ? You wouldn't ever want to? You don't find him 'that' desirable?"

"I. . uhh . ." Her questions have me questioning myself.

Do I find him desirable? Ofcourse yes!
Would would have happened yesterday if we weren't in a car? Maybe a room? Would we have__??

I shake my head at the thought, unexpected heat rising between my legs.