ONE HEART 4 STRINGS || Joshua ||SVT ff ||18+

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I tried not to let let Somi know I'd cried that morning before she arrived but I guess my mood is giving me away.

"I received a message from my dad" I say sighing

"He finally reached out? Well shouldn't you be glad?"

"If the message was worth it then I'd have been so happy about it Som. But..."

"Don't tell me he's trying to make you go back home and not for any good reason" she cut me frowning

"Yeah" I chuckled " ....apparently, my father wants me back home because his dearest Michael is a mess. He said I couldn't keep my relationship and so I brought shame to the family"

"Wow! Just wow!"

"He really ruined my morning. I was really excited when I woke up but now... I don't even know anymore"

"You were. I called you and I could tell you were excited, so you being all quiet and gloomy since I came over to your unit and even here, I sensed something was wrong"

"I'm trying not to dwell on it.....but it's hard. It's hard Som. My dad keeps hurting me every time"

"I'm sorry Lyn... Please don't dwell in it. For the first time in months I want to you to feel the thrill of what's in front of you. We planned so much for this event, buying all those albums and stuff and you're going to let that pass by and miss out on all the fun for something you know can't be solved today or tomorrow?

Please don't! You've been a great daughter to your parents and you know that. We may never understand why your dad's being that way but I know he has his reasons but they're really selfish because he's hurting you and he doesn't want to see it that way. He's so lost in that bubble that he doesn't realize the shitty things he's doing to you and even letting that God damn Michael treat you that way..... We're here now. Let's face today Lyn"

"Thank you Som. I'll try. It's hard but I'll try" I didn't even realize tears had already gathered in my eyes. I quickly wiped them and tried to smile but they keep flowing.

"You're trying to force a small you crazy girl" Somi rubs my back with one hand and uses the other to fix my hair.

"I'm not" I finally let that laugh out and for the first time in hours I intentionally tried to push my thoughts away so I could feel better.

Somi was about to say something but got interrupted as the members walked into the hall and began to take their seats.

I forgot how to breath!

" Yah! Are you breathing at all? Celine"

"I'm not. I swear I'm not. Dear God!"

No one prepared me for this moment. I thought I was ready to finally meet them- this close. Turns out I'm not.

"You're going to pass out when it's time to interact" Somi was laughing at me. I couldn't blame her. She's used to this, going to their concerts even getting front row tickets, or even attending some events where they get to perform or just make an attendance. she's used to this life but I'm not and I'm so nervous at the moment. I was tapping my legs nonstop.

"It's going to be fine Lyn. We all had our first times. I couldn't walk into the concert hall. I suddenly had to pee and take a shit but I got used to seeing them. So chill"

"I'm trying....I'm trying"

"There's a lot of stuff you're trying to do today. Ignore your dad's message and also enjoy the moment. Please try, this cost us money" she said laughing

I just sighed and turned to face the members. God! These men were good-looking without even trying, they radiate everything beautiful. They were seated in order of oldest to youngest. I didn't know who to look at, I suddenly wished I had more eyes. Somi had told me I could come with a gift and so I made bracelets, I was praying hard that the members like and accept my little gifts. 10 had crowns while one was made with an infinity design specially for The8, the other had a tiger design for Hoshi and then the last one had Angel's wings for Jeonghan. The personalized designs wasn't planned, I just saw them in my bead box and I couldn't resist using them.