I have hidden the Easter bunny in a low cabinet.  Stupid man, slime of Hell, lips opening and shutting on flame flickers of damnation, he eats and then I put him down for his nap.  Like a baby he blubbers little Hell bubbles, a sick wheeze.  Every day his nightmare opens as he goes under, a thousand years of sin slipping him down, down, down.  Where he dreams afternoon dreams of his inevitable afterlife.

     I set the house to rights.  Dishes, dusting, straightening, the full-bleach bath of fabrics he has touched.  Then into the shed in my floppy gardening hat to find my spade and kneeguards.  In another three weeks, tulips, blood sentinels, but for now these oh sweet daffs like yellow candy and their floppy green stems.  Ground covers like aubrieta, little holy purples in a downy maze, all of which Jesus appreciates, beauty at his feet like all the bunnies.  Jesus's bunnies don't nibble at foliage, don't even come near me, just romp in white puddles across him, loincloth and all.

     Darn lucky the sky is overcast or I'd be burning up in the sun.  Suffer the marriage, suffer the eternity with my husband, suffer the cancer that won't kill him it seems no matter my patience.  Here the smell of spring, clammy soil upturned, worms that aerate: is it true he's inside and I have to go in there?  I stand and brush dirt from the knee of my housedress.  One of the things he inhaled: my youth, my middle age, even my decrepitude, snarfed inside that weasly, fire-spitting mouth like all my chocolate bars.  Entirely gone, the old turd, the old blankety-blank, the old pitchfork penis.  I move creakily, and past Jesus who now is right gone, I'd guess dead, with all the bunnies curled up for nappies under his arms and between his legs.  If it weren't Easter the son of God dead on my lawn would be a fuss as far as the neighbours were concerned.

     Hush of the day.  Three o'clock already.  Six hundred and sixty-six bets on whether my husband's raided the cupboards yet.  Big surprise ahead.  I smell like God, I notice, when I'm up at the door, all earthy and whole from the yardwork.  And I've got to open it to him and his Hell smells stinking up the universe and too close by half to heaven.  Bid Jesus adieu before I turn the knob.

     Oh, and if the power of God anointed any inch of this forsaken house.  He's in the the kitchen of course, got into that wheelchair of his own accord and rolled like Hades onto the tile nearest my hiding place.  Oh, I see that scared and doomed expression on his face when I catch him; oh, I see exactly that he has ripped my bunny's cellophane, broken her box, snapped off her ears and her pink ribbons; oh, I see the smear of chocolate alongside his mouth like devil's excrement; oh, I see his brown and guilty fingertips.  Jesus on the lawn catching the sleep of eternity in a couple easy hours and this Satan in my kitchen, in my cupboards, in my chocolate Easter bunny, gobbling and glutting.

     He drops it you bet when I douse him with the rubbing alcohol.  You bet.  My bunny tumbles in flammable liquids, knock of cardboard on the tile, crinkle of cellophane.  Beautiful sound of alcohol spilling and I even get some in his mouth, upturned, crying Mama, what are you doing?  No, oh Mama!  And I expect he ought to self-incinerate he's so full of the devil's work, light up from the hot hippy flames he's got inside.  I just stand above him, slightly out of reach, waiting, pack of matches at the ready.  What a picture!  He's out of his mind grabbing at me, trying to get the chair going anywhere on the slippery floor, grunting and puking up complaints and fear.  Empty another bottle for resurrection.  And a third for luck.

      Looks like I'm going to have to ignite him.  It's not like my labour ever has been done, with this one. 

            Sound of the match scraping on the back of the match pack, sizzle into flame, and his ridiculous panic screams.  I just hold it, let him look at it a minute before I throw it, casual toss that strikes his lap and sends him up, up, up, a human torch, a sparkler in my kitchen.  I have to edge around him to pass by, for goodness sake, right close by the flames in their three-spiked climb up him.

     In the living room I find I'm exhausted.  I sag into my favourite chair thinking Jesus will just have to wake me up from a snooze.  I could use a chocolate bar.  Not that blasphemous bunny but a Hershey bar with almonds, dark chocolate.  Lucky we don't have a smoke alarm.  Still, I have to get up and open windows so I don't asphyxiate, if you can imagine, which lets, besides smoke, my sly husband's screams out.  Lord's on my side if nobody hears.  I lie on the couch, hands under my cheek, and try to ignore the dastardly smell.  As if I'm cooking for a banquet, whole side of beef on a charcoal spit.

     When I wake it's after eight p.m..  I slept right through the supper hour.  Jesus isn't here yet.  I'm stiff, so I move slow to see he isn't on the lawn either, least as far as I can see in the dusk.  Possible I could miss him, but not likely given he has white rabbits with him and they'd show up even in full dark.  I suppose he could have had errands to run first.

     I go check on my husband.  He's done to a turn after five hours, all right, but not dead, hardly dead, still puking and mewling under his bubbly black skin.  No flame.  All that's gone though I see the ceiling's filthy with soot, bad soot I'm not agile enough to get at anymore.  I'd try torching him again if I wasn't out of rubbing alcohol.  I go past him - I think he doesn't even notice me but I tell him I won't call an ambulance for him till nine, till it’s been a full six hours - and pick up my poor, amputated, alcohol drenched bunny.  Dear little lamb of Jesus, I cradle her in her busted box, and wait.

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