Reincarnated to save a broken heart ✓

Chapter 5

The other person looked at me uncomprehendingly, a silent question in his eyes as black as obsidian. His black hair, surprisingly short, fell to his shoulders, in keeping with his matte skin. 

A single solid gold earring dangled from his left lobe. A few red lines under his eyes highlighted his pupils.

"You can thank me later," Fury's voice echoed.

Idiot! Couldn't you have told me straight away that the man I was going to marry was Orias???? But... Was it only the one I knew?

"Take the vows," the priest's voice suddenly rang out, interrupting my completely nonsensical thoughts.

I began to recite the words I had learnt mechanically. My heart began to race, my tears continuing to flow in spite of myself. I pulled the veil down over my face, just long enough for my silent crying to stop. I looked back at Orias. Our eyes met. What I saw in his eyes terrified me and destroyed my heart.

What had I hoped for? The man I loved now only looked at me as a stranger, someone he had been forced to marry. There was nothing between us, there was no longer that spark he had when he looked at me, no longer that love reflected in his eyes, nothing. Everything we'd experienced was just dust, gone. I wanted to leave, far away from here, far away from this nightmare. My crumbling heart broke for good and something inside me snapped. Was it hope?My soul? My love? I've no idea... Did any of it really matter now?

"Get up, ordered the priest, continuing as we barely stood, under the heavens, I now pronounce you married."

My brain was only half listening to the cheers of the crowd. I was lost in a haze, I couldn't feel anything. My tears had dried on my cheeks and I didn't even have the strength to cry any more. Only a great emptiness remained inside me. 

The evening passed in a total blur. When the banquet came around, I sat down and fell into a deep silence. My eyes remained fixed on the food on offer. However, my stomach felt incapable of tasting anything except my despair, my appetite having died at the same time as my heart.

What's the point of living if the person you love the most doesn't know you?

On the outside, I seemed like an insensitive person. On the inside, my whole being was in turmoil, shattered.

I closed my eyes, just wishing that this nightmarish evening would end as quickly as possible. I felt nauseous, my mind refusing to believe reality, persuading itself that this was just a show, that when I woke up, I'd be back in my own world, in Orias's arms, that he'd be looking at me with love in his eyes, with my baby in my belly.

My breathing quickened as my anxiety attack took hold. My body began to shake and my eyes became cloudy.

I don't want to stay here any more, I want to leave, I don't want to, I refuse, I want my Orias, I want my baby ! I've had enough! I've already lost my family, I refuse to lose the one I love and my baby !!! Give me back my life, give me back my Orias, give me back my baby !!!!

Just as I was about to burst into tears in front of everyone, someone took me by the arm and dragged me away. I let myself go, tears cascading down my face and ruining my make-up for good, as my thoughts focused on my selfish wish to return to my former life.

A door opened and then closed as I was led inside, the voice ordering the servants to leave and not to enter without permission.

I concentrated a little on what was going on around me, between fits of crying, and saw that we were in the wedding chamber. The red sheets stretched out lazily while the curtains were still hung. The room was magnificent as i lifted my veil. Alas, my heart could not appreciate it fully.