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Insecurities ~ Chapter 1

SUNOO'S POV

Insecurities, we all have some inside us, I have too but never knew my existence could be the reason of someone's biggest insecurity even though they were perfect for eachother while I was the most imperfect one among them. I didn't cared about that until I realised maybe that I turned those petty insecurities into an ugly truth.

She feels insecure about me being in her and her boyfriends life and I'm afraid that I might end up ruining things between him, I and everyone around us. I wonder how others will see me after they'll know everything that me and him had done together.

Will they think I'm the one who did it all or will they blame him too? Will he take the stand for me or just leave me just like that?

Park Sunghoon, should i call him my LOVER or not? Definitely i am in love with him. Since the day I have saw him to now, it's been few years and I still love him.

I still remember the day I saw him for the first time taking away my breathe and stopping the moment for few minutes. Like an euphoria - It's the only word I can say to describe my first time seeing him.

His mesmerizing charm and that pearly white smile still lingers in my head. How can I forget that day. Honestly, I had never experienced such a day in my life but i guess at the end it was all worth it.

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I was coming back after finishing my high school coaching classes it was late at night, I had missed my bus for home plus that day was worse, it was raining cats and dog and Jungwon wasn't with me to help me that day.

"Ugh!! I'll be late again for home. Why, just why I didn't bring any umbrella. Shit my life is really hell." said to myself while walking in the rain both hands up on my forehead. I was trying to look in the rain as my vision was getting blurred due to heavy rain drops falling on my face and my eyes.

My clothes, my bag packs and my shoes were all wet. This is the most shittiest thing that's happening with me right now.

"Finally, a convenience store." I stood beneath the store trying to soak away the water from my clothes brushing it off with my hands.

"Why am I even trying to soak away the water when it won't work. Arrghh!!" frustrated upon myself I stood there with my hands across my chest.

I decided to wait outside until these waters drops from my clothes would stop dripping and then I'll go inside to buy an umbrella.

- "Hey, do you need any help?" someone said to me and I looked infront of me. He himself was soaking in the water but i couldn't see his face as his backpack was upon his head and his elbows were hiding his half of the face plus how will he help me when he is also struggling in the rain. "What a fool." I thought to myself and ignored him.

He came next to me stood beside me as I kept looking in the front.

- "What should I do know." the guy said in frustration while I could feel his eyes on me.

- "You are cute." he said making me blush on my place. Man no one ever told me that on my face i immediately looked at him only to get awestruck by his beauty and his handsome face.

He was brushing his hair with his right hand and a small frown plastered on his face but soon his expression turned into a soft one showing his wide smile as he looked at me I can see his white fangs while I observed his features, he had moles on his cheeks and nose that made him look like a prince plus those fangs gave a vampire vibe, as I saw him closely he looked like someone who resembles a penguin.

His smile. Yes that beautiful smile on his lips messed up my heart for a second. "How can someone look so handsome even in this state?" that's what I thought. He looked like someone straight out of an imagination.

I never felt my heart beating this fast for someone, not until I saw him. He was wearing different school's jacket. Probably he wasn't from my school.

- "We are all soaked in water."

"Y-yeah" i stuttered and looked at the front.

- "Don't be nervous. By the way I'm Park Sunghoon. And you?" he said bringing his hand forward to shake my hand.

- "I'm Kim Sunoo." I was actually nervous, obviously anyone would be if such a handsome boy infront of them would try to start a conversation. We shaked our hand while he stood there not leaving my hand, i hesitantly took my hand back and looked away from him.

Sunghoon - "Nice name. Your name is cute like you."

"When will he stop flirting with me, can't he see my heart is beating so fast that I can hear the sound of my own heartbeat." I wanted to say that to him but i couldn't, I can feel my cheeks burning up and I was afraid to look up at him. I gathered some courage to say something back to him but i saw a car pulling up next to us and I guess that was the call for him. Looks like he was rich.

Sunghoon - "I need to go now. It was nice seeing you Sunoo." he said walking towards the car.

"Wow my heart is going to jump out of my chest." The way he said my name, no one called my name in such a sweet tone. Once again all i did was see his back while he walked away but he turned back while taking something out from the car.

He came back to me and gave me an umbrella, well it was a cute and unique one, it had penguins carved on it, just like I said before, he resembles them and I guess it's his favourite.

He smiled and waved at me before he left the place. And I stood there with that umbrella on my hand while thinking about his face.

I kept my hand on my chest to check the speed of my heart and it was beating faster, that made me blush hard. I guess it's true "Small interaction always leaves a great effect." it was the same for me but don't know what he thought about me.

That was the last time I saw him, even though I went to that same convenience store on the same time thinking maybe coincidentally I'll see him again but it never happened.

I would stay outside the store for an hour thinking about him still carrying that umbrella with me whenever the monsoon came. Just like that years passed, i lost the hope of seeing him again. Many rainy days came and went away but he never showed up again.

Probably he would have forgot about me i mean it was such a short time interaction so anyone would forget about it and maybe he would have thought of me as a passing by person but for some reason I couldn't stop thinking about him and for me he wasn't just some passing by person.

That crave and urge of seeing him only for one more time stayed in my heart. My mind would constantly tell me to look for him a little bit more and a little bit longer.

I stopped going there and I finally passed the school exams with my friend Niki and Jungwon. We three prepared for same college entrance exam and luckily we passed the exam.

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What happened? and what brought me in this position that I have to narrate my own story to you. Tell me at the end of the chapters if I was the wrong one or they thought of me as a wrong one. If I made a right decision of loving him and staying with him or I made a mistake.

END OF SUNOO'S POV

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