𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗧𝗟𝗘𝗦𝗦 / 𝗚𝗔𝗩𝗜

fifteen

"Come on in." Julian opened the door for me and I smiled as I dabbed him up almost immediately.

"Thank you so much." I smiled as I looked around.

"I know, she's here." He said and he turned around as I saw Cate walking up to me.

"Hey" She smiled while she pulled me into a hug. I was in a state of shock as soon as she let go of me and smiled.

"Oh my god- hi." I smiled as I looked at her. "It's so nice to meet you. I've been really looking forward to this." I explained and she just nodded while we started walking to the elevator.

"You knew me before?" She asked surprised as she pushed the button to her floor.

"Yeah, I've been a huge fan of your posts and that stuff you know." She smiled slightly as soon as I said that.

"Awh that's so cool. Thank you." She smiled and we walked into the hallways. She walked to her room and then we sat down on her floor. We just talked the whole time about everything kinda.

After I went back home I knocked on Gavis door immediately. "What's up?" He asked while he pulled me inside the room.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" He asked me and pointed outside the window. "Do you see that? That's daylight my dear. That means everyone could see you and me together." He whispered aggressively and I shook my head.

"I'm careful" I whispered back while I walked further inside his room. I went over to the windows and closed the curtains. Nobody could see inside now.

"I'm too Anastasia and you're gonna get us caught one day." He pointed at me and I scoffed.

"If you keep yelling around then you're gonna get us caught." I poked my finger against his chest and he scoffed while he turned around.

"No Gavi," I grabbed his bicep and he turned around again. "Look at me." He looked at me as I wanted and slightly turned his head down.

"Yes?" He asked while he let his head hang down while still holding the eye contact. I looked away again and as I looked back at him he leaned in a pressed a kiss on my lips.

"What was that?" I asked him and he smiled a little.

"I have no idea." his smile faded just as he saw me and that I wasn't smiling. "is something wrong?"

"Why did you kiss me?" I asked while I slowly took a step back from him.

"Is that a problem?" He let out a little laugh and I then stepped back again. His smile faded just as fast as it did before.

"Yeah it most certainly is." I looked at him in all seriousness while wiping my lips with my hand.

"Why?" Gavis expression was weird, he smiled out of awkwardness.

"I don't love you Gavi, I don't know what you think or an-." He cut me off.

"What did you just say?" He asked, trying to keep his voice down.

"I don't love nor like you. I don't feel anything, especially not for you." I steoped just slightly away from him. Suddenly I saw his eyes going completely empty.

I couldn't see the spark I used to see. No facial emotion, his eyes were just a dark hole of nothingness.

"Get the fuck away from me." Gavi turned around and fixed his hair. As soon as he turned around to face me again I was just staring at him.

"You're just running away from your problems?" I scoffed while I crossed ny arms. "You know damn well that you'll have to see me again. There's no-"

"Then why the heck did you sleep with me? If you didn't love me?" He laughed a bit, I would have felt sorry for him. But I didn't, I didn't feel anything.

"Gavi I think it's-"

"No, no Anastasia. Get the fuck out of my face." His voice was shaking and so was his hands as he pointed at the door.

"Good, good, Gavi you're gonna regret this." I scoffed again while walking to the door. "I thought we could be friends"

"What friends with benefits? Friends as in fuck buddies? Are you playing with me Stasia?" He chuckled while he walked over to the door too. He grabbed my hand from the doorknob and I pulled it away immediately. I looked down at him, I felt his breathing getting faster.

"I'm not playing with you Gavi." I told him and then looked at the door. "Didn't you want me to go?"

"Oh fuck me, are you stupid?" He kept turning around the whole time but as he faced me again he smiled just a little.

"No"

"Then can't you see this?" He pointed between us. We both stayed silent for a second.

"Don't even-"

"Why Stasia?" He smiled.

"The last time we talked about this we hooked up not even one minute later." I told him and he immediately put his hands on my waist.

"maybe that's what I'm trying to do"

"I don't want this." I told him and shook my head. I crossed ny arms while he took even a step closer to me.

"Then why aren't you doing anything?" He asked and I scoffed once again as I slapped his face.

"Fair" He muttered under his breath and as he looked back at me again I already have turned around.

"Don't ever, talk to me again."

"You wouldn't want me to keep that promise." He yelled after me as soon as I couldn't see him because the door was just opened a few milimeters.

"I do" I slammed the door as hard as I could and then went to the elevator. After pushing the button to my floor I turned around and rested my forehead against the wall.

The doors opened and I turned around to make my way back to my room, once again. I went inside and immediately took Gavis hoodie and threw it in the trash.

I'm fine because I don't feel bad for him or anything. I don't feel anything.