Defeated (Book 1)

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Nique in MM

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August 27th

I was stuck in this house once again. Ameri doesn't let me out, he thinks I'll leave or just run to the police. I've been surviving, he hasn't beat me like he use too. Not as much. But I do remember him breaking a bottle of Hennessy over my head, supposedly The food I cooked was nasty. The impact from it made me black out. Guess what I was in the same position right by the stove on the ground when I woke up. Also him touching me in the worse possible way. After Yani left. That same night he did what I never thought I'll go through. He got his pocket knife and shamelessly dragged it against my shoulder blade leaving a scar but it was fading away, lucky it wasn't as deep . He felt as if I needed it. For being disobedient..I still have my phone but I haven't check to see if it was still there. Today was two months living with him. My train of thought was wrecked by Ameri's yelling.

"Le come down here!!"

I was in Yani room thinking, when I heard him shout from downstairs.  Jumping up I stampeded out the room to the living room.

"Yes Ameri?" My voice..myself was aggravated. Holding annoyance in.

"We going out so get ready dress comfortable" he stated to me while looking at his phone still. I was utterly shocked by this. I was smothered by excitement rushing upstairs again I barged in. I peered through my clothes. I chose a simple maxi sundress with some white sandals. I hurried to get in the shower and do what was needed. After feeling clean I dried off but not before lotioning my body and putting on deodorant. I brushed my teeth once again. They were 'perfect' as Yani said. I brushed off the thought of her, and started slipping on my clothes. When I did a 360 I couldn't help but think about my scar. I ran into Yani's closet to look for a simple denim jean jacket. After finding one I put it on giving myself one more look, I grabbed everything I'll need. The only thing that stopped me was the drawer I put my phone in. I glanced at it. Curiosity  filled my body. Yanking it open I looked for about a couple minutes. Until I found it. I smiled, I can't believe it, but my happiness was over.  By a voice coughing. I turned quickly to find Ameri leaning against the doorway.

"I-I'm sorry! I promise I won't-" Ameri cut my off by saying something that made me smile like the Cheshire Cat.

"Keep it, as long as you don't text nobody except me." He smiled at me, a warm one. Advancing towards me, I took a small step back but he wasn't fazed. He planted a small kiss on my forehead. I felt him smile sadly.

"I'm so sorry Le you don't deserve this." He muttered silently. He leaned away slowly, he placed his hands inside mines gently tugging me with him. I unclasped my hand from him. He look at me with sadden eyes, easing his hands in his pocket now looking at his shoes with fascination. I grabbed my purse before slinging it on my shoulder. He silently headed to the door I stuffed my phone and things in my purse before gripping Ameri's forearm. Making him look back at me, he quickly scanned my outfit for approval. I ignored that and simply tugged his hand out of his pocket. Joining our hands together.

Was this a mistake? Showing sympathy? Or was he planning another one of his games?

Deciding to ignore the caution, I gave him a small warm smile.

"I think we have placed to go" I joked hoping he'll smile. Which he did, we walking out the room to the living room. He let go of my hand to turn off the tv, lights and grabbing his phone. We headed towards the door, I stopped thinking about what will happen next. With a annoyed face Ameri faced me.

"What now?" He said in a jokingly manner. I was nervous, my first time coming out the house after months.

"Are you sure,you trust me?" I had to ask that question. Did he think I won't run or say anything. He grabbed the door handle opening it.

"If I didn't then I wouldn't be letting you go with me." Doing his smirk he walked out leaving the door open for me.