|| Reincarnation or another world? ||

2 |• Flashbacks •|

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No matter how much I hurt her without realising it, she still reply my text fast, bought me some food or snacks whenever I didn't bring any money, shares her food with me everytime I'm hungry. Sometimes I lied to her the reason why I couldn't answer her text or why I couldn't hang out with her, but that's just one or two times. I didn't do it frequently. She would say it's okay or it's fine. I don't know if she's that naive or she's just brush it off because she didn't want to annoy me much. Even though I told her many times that she never burden me or annoy me, she still believe she is because of my lacking reply texts or hang out.

Stella... Why are you so selfless..? Why are you always help me even though you're hurting? I can't understand you sometimes.. even though I learn about psychology. You tend to smile and make people laugh to cover up your tears. Even though our location of dreams is different, I want to be FBI agent at America while you want to continue your study at Russia... It's kinda ironic how we choose the country that opposes each other. You still promised me to come to America to live with me once your study is over. No matter how many times I said it's kinda dangerous or everything because how much crimes are there in America, you still insist. 

My tears dropped more as the raining is getting heavy. I know it's too late to say or thought this.. but I wish I could spend more times with her more, replying her texts and not just seeing it. I wish I could help her more... Guess it's true.. "They only remembered you when you're gone." And me here rewind everything about us ever since we met...

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Flashback...

I was just wandering around the open hall. It's cu-curricular time and I kinda didn't like it, I only came because I want get marks. I was wearing my Toman jacket that I bought cuz I love Tokyo Revengers.

Suddenly I saw someone, she's wearing a Black Dragon jacket. I kinda excited because I thought it's only me the one who watching Tokyo Revengers. Seems like I met a friend who has the same interest as me! Then she's also shocked to see me with Toman jacket. We're both having eye contact...

After a long eye contact, she called me. I walked to her, then she asked me if I also watch Tokyo Revengers then we're both started to get along. We're talking about animes too much, that we almost forgot that we're at school. Some students look at us, but we're ignored it.

From strangers to best friends.

Flashback ended...

It's been three years since then. I'm now 16 and she's 17. Despite everything, she still values me as her best friend and would do anything for me even though it's burdening her. This reminds me that one time..

When I crying in classroom and teacher brought me to the counselling room because I never told her what's wrong when she asked me. Then she left me in that room so I could be alone. I was lying on the floor, crying harshly. I closed my eyes. Suddenly I heard a voice calling me, as my shoulder got shaken gently by someone...

"Ace? Ace? Why are you here?"

As I opened my eyes, I saw her. Stella... How did she get here? Or should I say how did she know I was here? My mind is really a mess right now and I am just too lazy to think that. 

"Ace? Why are you crying? Did something wrong?"

She asked me with a worried face... I hugged her and cried harshly. Her eyes widened because of the sudden hug, but she didn't push me away. She hugged me back instead, rubbing my back gently.

"Shh.. what's wrong? Why are you crying like this? Hmn?"

I didn't answer her at first, I just kept crying and crying, hugged her tighter. I tried to speak but it's kinda hard because of how much I sobs. Then she decided to let me be and just continue comfort me..

"Shh.. it's fine.. Just let it out."

She continue to comfort me, not noticing that she's also crying. It's like she's also feeling what I felt. Without realising she hugged me tight too. I don't mind. 

After some minutes later, we're both slowly stopped crying. She asked me again what's wrong after wiping up her tears as well as mine. After I told her what happened, she listened and nodded. Saying some comforting words.. Suddenly she's crying again because she's also felt something similar happened to her. I hugged her, giving her the same comfort that she gave me.

After that, the teacher who brought me came back. Asking me why I suddenly crying in the class. I didn't answer her and just stayed silent. Then the teacher look at her and asking who she is.. Then she answer her that she's my friend that accidentally seen me here. When the teacher asked her did I tell her the reason I'm crying, she look at me.. then back to the teacher and shook her head. Saying that she didn't know and I didn't tell her anything about it.

After sometimes the teacher left, she told me that she know I'm in here because she saw my shoes outside the counselling room. Then she told me she need to go now because the counselling teacher will mad at her because she still at here while I'm in the counselling session(when someone in the coucelling room, no one except teachers or counselling teacher the only one allowed to get in).

Then when the school is over, she waiting for me at the door. Waking me up cuz I took a nap. Then we're walked out of the school. That was last year.

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Then few months later, I just found out that she's got scolded by the counselling teachers for get in the counselling room while I was in the counselling session. Her emotions still vulnerable that time, so she ended up crying around two hours. From that moment she told me about that, I feel angry and hate for the teachers for making her cry. She quickly told me it's fine and it's her fault for didn't listen to the counselling teacher. But I still angered them though.

No matter how toxic I am she still sees me as her best friend and like a sibling. She never leaves my side and support me from behind. I always feel like I don't deserve to have a wonderful friend like her. But she told me that everyone deserves to have a best friend in this cruel world no matter how bad the person is, they need someone close to understand them and cure the wounds in their heart. Even though it's blood-related or not.

I sighed.. looking at the sky, it's still raining here... 

'Stella... I miss you.'