|| Reincarnation or another world? ||

2 |• Flashbacks •|

At the graveyard

Ace's pov:

I was just looking at the grave, my best friend's name carved there.... I don't know what to feel... Everything is empty. Everyone already left, it's only me here. I held a plastic bag, there's a cup of hot carbonara ramen and a frappe Cappuccino. 

I sat down eat half of the food and drink half of the frappe Cappuccino. Then I placed them in front of the grave.

It's slowly started to rain. I placed the plastic on the food and drink so there's not a drop of rain could get in. I didn't care my clothes was drenched with the rain... I gripped my clothes... not realising that my tears already wetting my face since it's raining.

"Why...?" Is the word I managed to say...

'Why? Why? Why?! Why did this happened?! Everything was fine. How did suddenly became like this...? Stella... I still remembered the tattoo on her wrist.'

Semicolon tattoo....

'I already know about the butterfly tattoo... But semicolon?  I never noticed she get that one.. Is that why she always wear gloves? I didn't ask anything because I just thought she's cold...'

'Why.... Why didn't you tell me anything about it? I know I've been always busy and has no time to spend time with you but.. why didn't you say anything?'

I look at my phone, scrolling through the messages... There's unread. It's from Stella... 

                                                                                Today

"Hey Ace. I'm sorry if I bothering you again. Well, it's my birthday today. I don't mind if you didn't remember it or didn't wish for me. I just want to say, sorry for everything. Every burden that I gave to you. Every annoying things I say or do.. and also for how clingy I am for always want to call you everyday because you've been busy and we weren't able to spend our time at school or hanging out. I'm sorry if I didn't give you enough for all the things that you did for me. And I also want to say thank you for everything you did for me. Supporting me, held me back if I do something stupid, still trying to spend time for me even though it maybe kinda annoying for everyone because of how clingy I am. Still loyal to me when everyone else didn't. I really appreciate it. I don't even know what I do to have the best friend like you in this cruel world. You're the reason I keep living and trying to stop all of my suicidal thoughts every single day. You pulled me out from the dark place. You're my best friend, Ace. I will never regret meeting you in my life. I love you, my bestie. Please remember that you deserve my love."                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          1.00 a.m.

I felt my heart sank. She texted me this morning? How come I didn't read it? Well.. I always seen her text and didn't reply to it because of how busy I am and I don't know how to reply. I don't even know why she still sees me as her friend for how many times I couldn't reply her texts and couldn't hangout with her much... Does she not hurt with that? As far as I knew her, the thing she hate the most is... loneliness or lost someone important to her. ... But I knew damn well that she's selfless to the core that she wouldn't tell me if she's hurting because I didn't reply her texts or didn't spend time with her. She's just asking me why I didn't reply or sometimes she ask me to hangout. Everytime I denied it and gave the reason why I can't, she always nodded and said that she understand. She will blame herself for how many times she texts me or asking to hangout even though she knows I'm busy.